stardust summer

422 post

2010-08-19T10:19:00.003-06:00

its been so long since i last updated my blog.. a lot of things had been happening lately.. things just filled up my mind till my migraine came back.. and it just hurt so bad i had to rely on panadol again.. din wanna touch it but.. i couldnt take the pain that the migraine had been causing..

things are not that fine between me and liwei.. this time was different from the past few times.. i can even feel that his love for me now is different from last time.. i couldnt feel anything from his eyes, his hands.. when i held his hand, i could feel that its different.. its like.. there's no force.. i cant help it when my tears wanna fall.. everytime i held his hand, i feel this way and i just felt that my tears are going to fall out but i tried not to let it out.. in order not to let my tears fall, i held on to his arm instead..

i can even feel that liwei's tired.. very very tired.. the things i did.. i dunno why i did them.. in the past, i knw that i wont do such things to the one i love but i dunno why i did it to him.. its been some time but i still cant figure out why i let myself did such things to him.. i feel like slapping myself everytime i said or did something to hurt him.. be it verbally or through sms.. i dun feel that i am me when i did such things to him.. i dunno whats wrong with me.. am i mad or wad? why did i do such things to my own bf? to the one i love?

i wanna change things.. but i dunno where should i start from.. i dunno which is the best way.. i dunno how i should do it.. there's a lot of things i dunno..

i dun wanna make things more difficult for him.. but i want to solve this.. so that we can continue and move on with our rs.. i dun wan us to just stop here.. there's still a lot of things we haven done together yet.. i just.. hope things to go back to normal.. and i will never do such things to him ever again..

all the photos.. i looked through and through.. i like the photo we took at barrage the most.. the one we took the first time we went to barrage.. you looked really very happy.. unlike now.. i am the one who caused all the pain and tiredness to you.. i wont do them to you anymore.. i hope we can have our happy times back.. and let this period that we're going through now to fade away.. i want us to be happy.. i want us to be a loving couple.. i want us to have a happy relationship.. that would last forever..

421 post

2010-08-19T10:14:00.002-06:00

420th-post

2010-04-28T13:00:00.002-06:00

omg, its been sooooooooooo super long since i last updated my blog n i can even remember my password.. woooh~!

ok, somebody told me he read my blog.. and the person is.......... my liwei!! =) HELLO!! if you're reading this.. hahaha~!

hmm, now's exam period.. done with 2 papers and now with the last one to go, which is like.. one week later.. i haven one week to study for it.. how good is tt.. haha..

just finished watching Iron Man, liwei's dvd.. its nice! super nice! hahaha! love it! thanks liwei!!! =)

n now.. im goin to bed... tata~~~

418th post- why

2009-11-27T08:17:00.002-07:00

The word 'why', it can either be a question, or an 'answer' to a question. it depends on how you look at it. but to me, it is neither. because that word stopped appearing in my life.

If someone did something bad to you, the first thing that comes to your mind is, 'why?'. But sometimes, it is better not to have it answered to save yourself from tears, sadness, and disappoinment. So, don't even ask 'why?' when something like that happened to you. It is better not to know the truth. Because when you know it, you will start to ponder over it and make your life much more miserable than it already is. This is what I've learnt. You may not agree with me, but like what others may say, 'Different people hold different views'.

417th post - if 8 years ain't enough

2009-10-24T02:03:00.003-06:00

this is what i wanted to do..
this is what i wanted to learn..
for the past 8 years of dream..
now i have the chance to realise it..
but i'm not allowed to..
no one can ever understand how that will feel..
while others are allowed to do whatever they want..
with full support..
while i get none..
totally none of the support..
what i get is only how i am forever not going to achieve it..
not even a chance is given..
what they do is to twist and turn the actual meaning of those words..
if i can't even solve all the issues that implies, i wouldn't have brought up the matter in the first place..
i've been planning this for such a long time..
yet no one is willing to support..
thus,what am i to them..
someone who is not able to achieve any goals she has set for herself, for her life, for her dreams..
in conclusion, they don't understand at all..
''motive''?
what motives do i have for learning it?
the motives are simple..
for someone who is losing all her friends, just because she has to reach home by 11pm when she's out, no one wants to ever ask her out cos her phone will start ringing when the clock strikes 10pm, and she has to leave, to get home by 11pm..
for someone who has only a few close friends left, but they are not well-liked by her family..and she can't even talk on the phone for too long with any of them..can't sms too much..
so what is she left with?
she, herself, in her own la la land..
im just sick of watching tv and playing the comp all the time..
living a life like this, whats the worth?
why can't you guys just be happy for me, at least i would like to have a change in life, doing what i love, and not asking me whats the damn use of learning it?

416th post-why

2009-10-10T03:15:00.001-06:00

i dont know what to blog about anymore..

''Words I Couldn't Say'' - Rascal Flatts

415th post-timeless

2009-10-05T08:18:00.003-06:00

indeed, kinda regret not updating my blog over that period of time.. simply just noting down the details that happened.. but somehow, it may not be the best decision after all.. you're everywhere i go..

i love the life i have now.. i love the place i'm at.. the flexibility that not every place can give.. i love to travel and i love looking at the scenery everyday.. this became something that someone will enjoy doing.. so overall, i just totally love it..

however, i just feel that time is never enough.. 'timeless' is how i should phrase it i guess.. and suddenly, i just felt that this, is somehow, the way things should be..

414th post-suddenly i just...

2009-09-19T11:57:00.002-06:00

i did a test on facebook,'what do you need most in a relationship?' and the results show:

You have a certain innocence about you.You want the simple things in life. You love hugs,kisses, and being in the arms of the person you love. You want to feel protected,loved, and adored. You like your lover to initiate the first move and on some occasions you like a little aggressiveness but for the most part you need physical affection in order to maintain happy relationship.

someone who loves the way you are,

someone who respects any decision you made,

someone who loves freedom,

someone who do the things he know you love,

someone who says things to make you feel that you're loved when you're down,

someone who do things to make you laugh when you're tired,sleepy,listless, or sad,

someone who loves watching action movies,

someone who laughs at you when you're so scared watching those scary scenes of the movie,

someone who snatches popcorn with you,

someone who loves eating mixed vegetable rice,

someone who loves milo,

someone who would wait for you no matter how late you are,

someone who makes the effort to get to know your best friends no matter how hard he's trying to hide the truth about everything,

someone who loves to give you surprises,

someone who is worried about you when you're not feeling well,

someone who loves the things you love,

someone who thinks about you wherever he is,

someone who hopes you dream of him every night,

someone who remembers the things you love,

someone who became the drive in whatever you do,

someone who feels that every meeting isn't long enough,

someone who wants you to have confidence in him,

someone who you can always get in touch with 24/7,

someone who finds every way to get in touch with you to make sure you're doing fine when he's around,

someone who loves the old old songs,

someone who would love you to meet the ones he loves,

someone who believed you will be together with forever,

someone who left

suddenly.. i just..

413th post

2009-08-29T10:14:00.003-06:00

i think the number of readers of this blog can be counted using only one hand.. haa~! hmm.. cos i dunnoe wad to write about.. which is true.. ok.. someone asked me to update.. so here i am.. what am i up to recently? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... reading up reports of the pass 3 months in... 1 day??? it was a disaster yesterday!! my eyes were so damn painful n i din bring my eye drops.. worse still.. and what could be worse than this? i've only managed to finish readin 1 and a half months of reports.. damn damn damn.. sighhhhhhh... i've asked so many people and so super duper many times.. all of them gave me the same answer.. quit it~~~ n yeah yeah.. give me 2 weeks.. i've been hating it since the first day im there.. sighhhhh...

ok.. i totally can't wait for jean to come back during december.. so we can spend the whole day out chit chatting!!!!! hahaha.. jean, if you're reading this.. you know how much i've missed you!!!!!!!

met up with mel on thurs and went back to raffles hotel.. spend around 20 mins there and i just can't wait to go somewhere else.. when we were at the basement.. we saw someone familiar.. haa.. the chef that sophia had kinda.. a crush on.. haha.. din realli talk much.. so sorry.. and we went off for lunch at city link.. Xin Wang (not the one from Hong kong.. its said to be from Taiwan... hmmmmmmm.....) uploaded photos on facebook.. and they have the super duper nice bubble tea!! yeah.. i knw.. its cold drink.. but.. er.. yeah.. i still ordered it... heeee...

kept wanting to purchase that customised necklace.. budden.. sigh..

i kept thinking what is the best for you.. and i chose this way.. (although i've been scolded for always thinking for others and not for myself) but.. this is the only way you wont be having any pressure.. but still.. let's travel around the world together =)

fell in love with kris allen's No Boundaries.. love the lyrics so much.. it just felt like the things that happened to me.. one point in time.. it just felt like.. i'm going nowhere.. the road ahead leads to nowhere.. so lost and you just dunnoe wad to do.. isit right for me to make this decision? isit right for me to make the other decision? i just dunnoe which is the best decision.. before everything fell apart.. you were there to tell me that everything will be fine.. but when it all happened.. it felt like double blow.. couldn't handle it well.. in the end.. it was the third option i chose.. and i just need a rest.. for these few months.. thats why i left raffles hotel.. my life was in a very fast pace and i feel that i need to slow down.. so that i wont miss out any important thing in life.. maybe its too late to realise this now.. but i never regret the decision i've made.. to leave the place i love so much and learn to live in another environment.. the only thing i need to do is to live my life.. and make sure i live it well.. not wasting a single moment of it.. i wont let time just pass by right in front of my eyes.. but sometimes, i'll still wonder.. if i did the right thing.. in the lyrics, "Break every rule.." hmm.. is it realli true that There Are No Boundaries?

412th post - <3

2009-08-15T03:27:00.000-06:00

although its only 8/10 (if u still rmb what im refering to.. =))..
i think it will become 10/10 one day..

as for the rest of the 2/10,
it will be filled up slowly someday =)
see you soon too!!! <3

no.411 post-

2009-07-04T07:07:00.002-06:00

sent messages with no reply..
except for the topic you've been waiting for me to 'discuss' about..
it wasn't a discussion after all, isn't it?
you've already decided from the very day you spoke out..
now,
it's just like this song..
is there really no turning back?

Secondhand Serenade-It's Not Over

my tears run down like razor blades
and I know I'm not the one to blame
its youor is it me?
and all the words we never say
come out and now we're all ashamed
and there's no sense in playing games
when you've done all you can do

but now it's over
it's over
why is it over?
we had the chance to make it
now it's over
it's over
it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
but it's over

I'll lose myself in all these fights
I'll lost my sense or wrong and right
I cry, I cry
shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just want to crawl into my bed
and throw away the life I've led
but I won't let it die, I won't let it die

but now it's over
it's over
why is it over?
we had the chance to make it
now it's over
it's over
it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
don't say this won't last forever
you're breaking my heart, you're breaking me heart
don't tell me that we will never be together
we could be
over it's over
we could be forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
don't say this won't last forever
you're breaking my heart, you're breaking me heart
don't tell me that we will never be together
we could be
over it's over
we could be forever

it's not over
it's not over
it's never over
unless you let it take you
it's not over
it's not over
it's not over
unless you let it break you
it's not over

410th post

2009-06-18T09:24:00.002-06:00

i was so wrong..to have said that you din remember, you din remember.. but actually, you're the one who is more thoughtful.. maybe you din know that.. but you are.. a yearly 'thing' is much more meaningful and special than a 'monthly' thing.. you are so so so right!!!

but now, everything just felt like tumbling down.. y did i always suspect this kind of things would happen, and it did happen.. me and my stupid thinking.. shit! now we're not talking and i just hate it.. for the first time ever since last yr.. i know you're not going to talk about anith for the time being.. n somehow, i already know what your answer is.. but i just hope its something different.. y did things turn out this way? everything was going so well.. n somehow i have a feeling that you found my blog.. so if you are reading now.. i really meant what i said in the message i sent.. i even told u a secret that i din tell anyone..

n now, i feel like the worst is back.. its been gone for a few months and now its back.. how am i going to do this without you?

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the borken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not
It's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together
I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you
The way I felt
That I'd be lost without you
And never find myself
Let's hold onto each other
Above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes.

still nothing from you

2009-05-25T01:52:00.002-06:00

i just cant stop being angry over such small things..
keep jokin that i'm 'small gas'..
but.. its not the problem of being 'small gas' or not..
its whether you care about it or not..

and..
you have 8 hours left..
before the day ends..

the clock is ticking..

23 hours and counting...

2009-05-24T10:47:00.003-06:00

i keep asking myself..
if you forgotten about this day..
what would i do..
now..
i guessed you really forgotten about it..
but..
you have 23 hours to prove me wrong..
but but..
i still have a bad feeling about it..

godpa was right..
i'm scared..
n indeed.. honestly.. seriously..
i am..
that's why i'm so worried these days..
i just kinda had enough..
saying things and doing things differently..
what the crap

i planned it already..
n now this..
y do u wanna make me have a feeling of giving up..
now, i just don't feel like talking to you..
cos i think u dun even give a damn about it..

and.. the clock is ticking...

ruined

2009-05-16T09:31:00.001-06:00

all plans are ruined..
maybe that's the way it's gotta be..
a change of direction..

where are you

406-sweeet =)

2009-04-19T07:37:00.002-06:00

busy schedule.. but everything's fine with you ard =) my mind is certain.. althought it got abit shaky today.. but as i pressed the cancel button.. it shows that i've become more certain.. because of you.. i am able to cancel it off.. n it will never be sent out..

since the recipient would not wish that i am the one who approach first.. from this, it is clear that i am not able to find the recipient whenever i want to unless the recipient makes the first move.. but on the other hand, he is someone who i am able to find n approach whenever i want to.. 24/7 just for me.. which for me, is enough =)

to the person, if you're reading this, it seems to me that everything is not like what you said.. if you want me to trust you again.. den you have to try harder.. words should go together with actions.. but for you.. it has always been 'only words'.. i dunnoe wad you wanna do.. but i can tell you now that my mind is certain.. i hope you see this.. if you don't, den i dunnoe wad to say..

back to happenings.. wow.. korkor gave me a pack of playing cards he bought from japan disneyland.. cute! haha.. wad i've been doing at work? disturbing korkor n micheal.. huaha!! say things that will make them speechless.. n its realli difficult to make senior laugh at my jokes.. he just wont laugh.. sigh..

about wad korkor said to me today.. wad i can say is.. no matter how happy a person is in front of everyone.. she is not always happy.. she has encountered sad things too.. but being happy had became a way to hide her unhappiness.. so, in conclusion, no one is forever and always happy..

hmmm.. actually abit fan these days.. knowing things which i have to keep it to myself.. seeing them being sad about it.. yet i can't say much or do much.. nobody can know about this.. nobody is suppose to know.. but everything does realli get easier with u ard.. =)

JULY JULY JULY!!!! end work n i wanna go travel n play!!! discussed with korkor about this alr.. we all shall go on a trip! haha=) can't wait!!!

hmmm.. somebody is going to have fun this weekend alr.. but nvm.. i will be fine =)

lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MELISSA TAN!!!!! =) loves!! n i hope can meet up with jess n sj soon!!! n ah hai too.. haha! (see.. i din leave out your name =D)

P.S: love the song on my friendster profile =)

405th post - busy life

2009-04-12T09:57:00.004-06:00

haven been online.. haven been updating blog.. super busy with work.. so are the rest.. a day would pass as quickly just like how a leaf falls to the ground.. met familiar faces at work.. haha.. they were shocked to see me again.. ok.. erm.. things got complicated but its now clearer than ever when everything comes clean.. yes yes people, continue to play the guessing game.. haha.. ok.. too much to update about.. so i'm gonna cut short.. went to jian hai's bd party.. rushed there after work.. met carol n kj.. in the end.. could only stay for awhile.. sorry buddy!!! had to work the next day..

there was once when 3 person gave me things on the same day.. haha.. first it was.. erm.. dun say here better.. den senior gave me chocs from italy.. den Dr. gave me a box of chocs he bought from fairmount.. oh my.. haha..

ok.. busy with work.. but was happily getting busy.. haha.. with all the fun and laughter as usual.. n last thurs mel treated us supper!!.. went for steamboat.. was working morning the next day so din stay for long.. thanks mel!! =) n the next day..it was like.. "accident-day".. the door hit my head when i tried to go out.. korkor was taking a box down from the shelf n it hit my leg.. god-dad was packing some stuffs n one of them dropped n hit my foot.. after work.. met tommy n went for dinner.. someone who walked pass me was holding a basket n it hit my finger.. omg.................................................

graduation ceremony is on 19 may.. n yup.. this time my results were alright.. rmb i was sick like siao during exams.. ok.. now im gettin sore throat also.. thanks to korkor de chocolate crunch that he bought from japan.. it was a big tin of chocolate crunch with mickey mouse's head as the shape.. haha.. cute!! he bought it from disneyland.. n i can say.. its not cheap.. oh my.. haha.. but its nice la.. yummy.. n tts y i got sorethroat.. haha.. opps.. im blaming him for all these.. =X oh n he gave me a pen with Tinklebell.. n the next day.. he gave me a .. erm.. dunnoe wad its called.. he bought it from the temple in japan.. ok.. sleepy me.. gotta go sleep alr.. busy life.. wont be online so often.. wont be blogging so often.. so anything.. pls reach me on my mobile.. thanks =)

P.S: its sweeeeet =)

404th post - what if

2009-03-18T03:25:00.004-06:00

i kinda got amnesia i think.. kinda forgotten about everything.. n i mean EVERYTHING~ kinda lost sometimes.. cos i dunnoe wad i should do..

ok.. exams officially ended on 26 Feb n its been months since i last updated my blog.. had a super duper busy January.. n busy with tests during Feb.. den study week.. den exams.. den.. GRADUATED!!! slacked at home for about 2 weeks.. n went back to work at RH.. my plan to create a surprise did not succeed in the end.. sad.. haha..

n saw the letter yesterday midnight.. shocked n happy.. =)

went back to previous workplace..
its been about more than 6 months since i last went back..
time past really fast and i knew them for 1 year alr..

was bombarded with a lot of questions today by chris n eileen..
what else to do but to deny everything..
walked by the same route.. the same place..
kinda missed them somehow..

403 post - sad/ confused/ miss

2009-01-17T06:44:00.005-07:00

am feeling sad too..
seeing how hard he's trying to hide his sadness and grief..
could understand how hard it is for him to go through this..
now, we are able to see how fragile life can be..
and how short life can be..
what if we've only have a few more years to live..
what is the very last thing you wanna do?
telling those you love how much you love them?
or telling those you've hurt how sorry you are??
everyday i wake up..
the very first thing on my mind is..
'what if today is my last?'
so..i will live everyday as if it is my last..
creating happy memories and living the day to the fullest..
so as not to have any regrets..

you got me confused rounds and rounds..
what do you want from me..
maybe its cos i din bother you much this few times..
dun wanna talk to you in school..
and you think i'm getting further away from you..

missing you already..
or should i even say..
am already missing you even before you left..
thats why i din know what to say on the phone..

but nvm..
it'll keep me accompany for now..
2 more days till you're back..

402nd post

2009-01-09T08:30:00.007-07:00

this is how fate can play with us.. and this is how my life is playing with me..

the last time i saw you, i really thought it was going to be the last time i saw you..

the last day of 2008, how i wish i will never ever see you ever again..so 2009 will be much better..

and guess what, fate really knows how to play games..

the instinct that can't be explained.. the same old route i used to walk..

the same bus stop i used to be.. the same you i used to know..

how great can the timing be.. when it's just randomly the time for us to go..

2 different buses came.. one to bedok.. one to tampines..

the one thing is, ever since school started, i've never once taken bus to tampines..

yeah.. so, greatly, fate really do loves to play games..

the next stop, a turn back, i saw the you i used to know..

greatly shocked, because the instinct did came true..

how relieved i was to be on that bus rather than the one behind..

you still looked.. the same.. a little.. change..

the sight of you just reminded me of everything..

unhappiness grew.. hate revolved around.. sadness came to say 'hi'..

so does it really din even bother you at all for the disappearance of one week?

you din even ask.. so, what can i say..

i wasn't giving up.. i know i didn't contact you at all.. but i didn't thought of giving up..

it was you who said not to give up.. but you're the one who gave up first..

so, apologised for the disappearance of one week..

and that's the answer you gave me.. how am i suppose to respond..

seeing you again did remind me of the one week i had..

the week i wished you were with me so much..

and indeed you didn't know what was going on and what actually happened..

i didn't wanna tell you.. cos at that time, i already knew you didn't care..

well, if you think i've never tried, you were so totally wrong

and if you think only the scene of tears would prove your importance,

you were right, but you didn't see it yourself, so again, what can i say..

all the long sms i've sent, well, i really guess you didn't receive any of them..

the most helpful thing he said to me was, "what can you do?"

so i guess this sentence did helped a bit.. or much..

sometimes i just thought.. how i wish there was a button.. which can erase all of these..

so when i see u on the street next time.. i will just pass by.. with no feelings at all..

will you even be reading this.. i have no idea..

you didn't even know i was there today.. it was just a window away..

but, what i can say is, glad to see you recovered and walking around normally..

and, if you still remembered what you said, the first thing you wanna do when you recovered..

i guess its something that will never ever happen..

401st post

2009-01-01T02:46:00.005-07:00

everyone just felt like we don't have enough time for everything.. high expectations for projects but we do have other things to do too.. maybe its just something for us to learn.. learn how to handle all things at one go.. learn how to handle stress.. learn how to manage time.. but the thing is.. we use all of our time to do projs and get busy with schoolwork.. we don't have any more of free time to do other things.. even to spend that free time (which we currently do not have) with our loved ones.. sigh.. what can they do but to understand what we are going through.. now what i can do is to fork out some free time during weekends.. that's when we are free.. haha.. hmm.. i will only be free during february.. and after february.. thats when we'll go travel around.. and play and eat and have fun!!!

ok.. 31 dec.. which was yest.. the last day of 2008.. YEAH!!! byebye 2008, hello 2009!!! went to shop at around 8.. daddy fetched me there as i tot i was going to be late.. den they were doing stocktake.. so..ok.. went to help out.. free labour.. haha! den we had sooooooo much fun in shop.. keep playin with 'Ponyo'.. hahaa.. ok.. we had a conclusion.. who ever come and work and walk through that door will become siao siao one.. hahahah!!! michael just cant tahan us.. korkor also cant tahan alr.. haha.. we all just kept laughin and laughin.. and they also just wont forget to disturb disturb.. but too bad.. he cant come for supper.. haha.. den walter came.. gave us all party de stuffs.. hahaha.. cute lor.. ok.. den we all set off.. close shop.. went opp to have supper.. den korkor called lbsh.. but too bad.. haha.. den senior helped me revenge.. haha!! thanks man..

den we ate till ard 11 plus.. den 6 of us went to sing k.. korkor,merlin,melissa,ryan,huishan and me.. haha.. we had our count-down in the mrt.. cuuuuuuuuuuuuutttttteeee.. and someone called.. hee =) and wow.. i can say.. they sure are good singers man!!! sang till 4 am.. how fun!!! and korkor wanted to treat.. siao lor.. sure damn ex la.. in the end.. we din let him treat.. haha.. reached home at 5am.. cannot tahan when at party world alr.. nearly fell asleep alr.. haha.. reached home after bathing.. and boom.. off to bed..

this sat we shall see how.. or else someone gonna be so bored alr.. haha=) but then.. sat morning i got lesson.. and sat evening.. steph jie-jie birthday party!! haha..

and.. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

and ya.. i miss you tooo, melissa tan!!! and my dear and darling.. you guys know who i am refering to rite??? =D

MY 400TH POST~!

2008-12-27T00:07:00.005-07:00

OMG.. THE 400TH POST OF MY BLOG!!! haha.. wad should i write about... hmmmm.. ok.. i shall talk about Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, and Boxing Day. (ok.. this part felt like i'm answering an essay question.. starting with the first para describing wad i'm going to write about... haha.. ok.. lame ~!~ lao gong alr said that i'm super lame.. haha!)

ok.. christmas eve.. was actually going to stay at home.. but in the end.. went out to watch movie with jess and shujun.. we went to watch Twilight.. GREAT MOVIE I TELL YOU~! hahaha.. den michael sms me.. tellin me about a gathering tt nite.. but i was alr outside.. so couldn't go.. and mel couldn't go too.. in the end.. i heard that the gathering was cancelled.. omg.. felt so bad..

talk about christmas day.. went to orchard in the evening for dinner.. Ochard was super packed!!.. ok.. i mixed up the 2 hotels.. in the end.. i was late for like.. ard half an hour?!?!?! haha.. and OMG~! someone gave me a bear from Build-A-Bear~! i was damn shocked la.. haha.. i think most prob he did it himself.. haha.. it was in blue.. (MY FAV COLOUR~!) and the bear is wearing an angel costume which is in light blue with snowflakes prints (MY FAV SNOWFLAKES ~!).. he told me he wasn't sure what i liked.. so he picked wad he liked and which seemed nice.. haha.. ok.. den went cafe cartel for dinner.. it was packed and hence we waited.. haha.. LOVE THE BEAR SOOO MUCH~! (its my phone's wallpaper now~! =) )

yest was Boxing Day.. i went down to Raffles hotel as HR was lookin for me.. went to buy some stuffs for them.. Raffles Shop~! haha.. and i bought one box for senior also..haha~! promised him that i'll treat him something cos he helped me with something.. haha.. ok.. went back shop awhile before i go down to HR.. and michael gave me a christmas present!! haha.. ma n mel got him sth as well.. went down basement.. saw the security guards i got to know.. haha.. mr safaruan too.. haha.. chatted for awhile den went to HR.. audrey got me the stuffs and chatted awhile and i left.. said bye to them and went back to shop.. waited for mel to go for dinner tgt.. in the meanwhile.. went to eat some chocs.. haha~! ok.. den michael din wanna go dinner with us.. so we left.. went to eat at bras basah.. den went popular.. den korkor called.. told me he had sth for me.. but den.. i tot he wasn't coming to shop so i din bought present for him.. orh....... bad me.. ok.. den we faster go back shop.. saw michael and liana.. den after awhile.. mel came back.. den korkor called back shop.. ask to meet him at cad's alley.. in the end.. before i even walked out of shop.. korkor came.. haha.. and he gave me sth.. but i din see la.. den mel's friend came.. den korkor asked if i was going home.. den after awhile.. we left.. korkor sent me home.. haha.. ok.. he asked me to see wad he gave me.. haha.. omg.. he really gave me a water bottle.. cos tt time he saw my current water bottle.. say its time for a new one alr.. den he really bought me one~! hahaha~!.. its damn cute la.. and its BLUE~! ya.. ok.. now alot of ppl know i like blue.. haha~! omg.. got so many presents this yr~! =)

my work is piling up like mount fuji.. going to be like mount everest soon.. haha~! hmmm.. next wed..31 dec.. maybe going for dinner, movies, kbox with RS peeps.. and maybe 14.. going to LBSH..hoho~! maybeee oni.. oh my.. 2009 is coming!!!!!! gotta start submitting applications already.. i have LOTS of stuffs to do..

and I LOVE THE BEAR!!! haha =) my very first teddy bear i can say.. daddy dun allow me to have any teddy bears ever since i was a kid.. due to some reasons.. the soft toys i have aren't furry.. so ya, IT'S MY FIRST TEDDY BEAR~!

AND OH GOSH, I LOVE THIS YEAR'S CHRISTMAS !!!!!!!!! =)

merry christmas =)

2008-12-25T10:16:00.004-07:00

there was once when someone sent me a message..

if i were to forward it to another person..

i will have 9 million angels..

i looked at the message for awhile..

and i deleted it..

there was something in my mind..

i don't need 9 million angels..

cos, i already have one..

and..

now, i have another..

merry christmas to all! =)

and merry christmas to my angel..

"this gift" by 98 degrees =)

busy busy busy~!

2008-12-19T00:57:00.003-07:00

quite some time since i've last updated.. i'm super not free for the past few weeks.. and i will be super not free for the next few months.. so.. will see me online.. but i dun have time to talk.. haha.. ok.. in the next few months.. i can forsee how things will be like for those who are in Year 3.. 8 reports due in january.. sem tests in both jan and feb.. exams in feb.. presentations.. 1st avenue.. now.. my organizer is filled with deadlines, tests dates, and exam dates.. and also.. friends' birthdays =) yeah.. someone gave me the LOOK yest when i forgot when his birthday was.. hahaha.. sorry la jj.. and becos of this.. he bullied me during dinner at Marche.. oh ya.. we went to celebrate sj's birthday yest.. went to watch Ip Man with her and louis.. [and actually i'm suppose to watch this movie on sat.. but i BS tt person alr.. sorry..] .. and went to meet jj.. den we went off to vivo for dinner.. photos uploaded on friendster..

i received the letter.. what should i do..................................................................................

first wk of sch

2008-12-07T11:35:00.003-07:00

woohoo.. back to school.. and how much i wish i'm actually back to work rather than school.. first wk of school.. were told when's out proj submission.. OMG.. and we're going to have sem tests during jan.. proj submissions during jan.. and exams during feb.. how great.. had been late for lect this whole week.. even more cool rite.. haha..

and i receive calls EARLY IN THE MORNING just to wake me up.. when my lect's at 4 pm~! thanks ah........... haa~! and yup~! my phone is ON 24/7.... but pls dun prank call.. haha!! falling asleep durin lect.. especially the one on friday.. kept leaning against the wall.. tryin to rest for awhile.. but cant.. sigh.. and SOMEONE saw me falling asleep alot of times during lect.. haha.. ok.. i'm tired ma.. plus my flu still no change.. disturb me somemore.. bleah =P no chocs for you alr~! =P

went for work yest and today.. had my first dinner at canteen as a part-timer.. the lady there got shocked when i pass her the paper.. haha.. cos she din know i finish attachment alr.. haha.. had dinner with michael.. and li hui and walter.. and korkor went missing.. haha.. and michael kept lookin out for tommy.. but think he's dinner later ba.. as usual.. after shop close.. went to accts.. mr safaruan came.. and he kept jokin and jokin.. funnie uncle.. haha..

and for work today.. guess wad.. i was damn late today.. cos of the marathon thingy.. haha.. called back shop to tell them that.. den i told them.. if let me walk.. i might have alr reached there w/o being late.. hahaha~! hmm.. went to work.. walk damn fast to basement and off to work.. mel said my eyes are swollen.. yup.. they are.. cos of my flu.. sigh.. cant wait for dinner time.. haha.. cos i was hungry alr.. den i was going to 5.. so yeah~! dinner time~! went off with korkor.. and guess wad.. first time see him go canteen.. haha.. and damn it la.. saw the courtyard guy.. we were sitting at the last row there.. den i saw him.. damn it really.. den i just dun care and cont eating and talkin to korkor.. and the courtyard guy just wont leave la.. keep standing there.. even if i finished my dinner, i also wont wanna walk there la.. but tts the only way out.. damn~! think he dun dare to walk to our place there also.. crap lor.. sigh.. den we left.. den there was another way out~! and phew~! we din ran into him!! den went back shop.. den after awhile.. korkor come tell me.. he saw the courtyard guy at the entrance.. like wad he said.. he must be waiting.. omg.. -_- den Lex was asking wad happen.. haha.. omg..

after shop close.. went to accts.. waited for quite long.. until mr safaruan came.. haha.. joking again.. den after tt.. went home.. and yeah.. just now we're discussin proj.. and now.. its 3 plus am alr.. i'm eating honey stars.. its realli breakfast .. at this hour.. haha!! and sigh.. you're going with them next yr alr.. bleahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~! =P so nvm.. you go play yourself.. i go play myself.. huahahha~! =) k la.. go sleep loooooo....

SIP ENDED~!

2008-11-29T03:33:00.004-07:00

SIP ENDED~! and i'm sad.. rather stay there to work than go back sch.. work is more fun than sch.. when SIP started.. how i wish it ends faster... and now.. i rather go back to work.. haha.. i'm gonna miss everyone there.. EXCEPT FOR THE COURTYARD GUY..

gonna miss the morning feel of raffles hotel.. gonna miss the night view of raffles hotel.. gonna miss melissa.. korkor.. michael.. pauline.. the security guards who i'll see everytime i work closing with korkor.. (i told them i'm going back McDonalds~! haha.. inner joke).. gonna miss the lunch and dinner.. gonna miss Thos.. and lastly.. gonna miss tommy~!

hahahahaha!!!! like wad vanessa said.. me, mel, and her.. gonna CRASH alr.. hahahha... inner joke again.. and alr told mel and korkor.. LET'S GO LONG BAR STEAKHOUSE AGAIN!! but actually.. i'm already going back to work for 2 days.. hahaha!!!!!!!! and thanks to mel ah.. wherever we go.. she'll help me tell them that it's my last day alr.. hahaha..

ok.. last day of SIP.. which officially was yest.. but i ended on thurs.. did closing with mel and michael.. went for dinner.. the 3 of us.. in the canteen.. laugh till like siao can.. especially when walter came.. laugh till damn more jialat la.. the last day alr.. and it was a busy busy last day.. and it was a fun last day.. =) thanks all~!!!! =)

thanks to korkor for the winnie the pooh stuffs and chocs.. thanks to michael for the christmas mini tiger and chocs.. (LOVESSSSSSSSSS THE CHRISTMAS MINI TIGER~! CANT STOP CARRYING IT ARD THE SHOP~!) thanks to pauline for the ginger bread man and hp accessory (and guess wad.. i bought a hp accessory for pauline and some ginger bread stuffs for her kids..~! haha!! =)) .. THANKS alot to everyone~! =) haha.. yest.. went back to submit report.. michael saw our report.. and he said we can sell the report alr.. hahaha.. i slept at 5 plus in the mornin the day before.. slept only a few hours.. and off i go for shopping before goin back to shop.. had supper with them yest.. loads of laughter as usual.. so gonna miss this too =)

hmm.. finally opened a facebook acct.. next time.. it shall have our photos there =)

going for kbox next wk with kiong they all.. and cuzzie's weddin on fri.. and there's work.. think i'm buyin the dress i saw yest.. ohh.. and they also said i'm skinny.. but.. its like.. HUH?!?!?!.. haha..

i can't wait to go for the trip next yr~~!!!! =) and.. i'll see you back in school =)

happenings~!

2008-11-23T09:42:00.004-07:00

ok.. burden's down.. and guess what.. here comes another one.. haa! 19 nov, called mr nice up.. in the end.. er.. dunnoe wad to say.. haha.. 20nov, had a call from korkor when i'm shopping.. too bad.. korkor's wish din come true.. haha.. i'm off that day and still can ask me go back work.. omg.. and he said he prepared 1001 things for me to do alr.. ya rite..

ok.. 21 nov, went down to the unit.. went to buy lunch and went to shop.. was going to eat one.. in the end.. was sooooo busy.. i ate my dear lunch at 3.30pm.. when i'm going to have my dinner at 5pm.. cuuuuuute... was goin for dinner and guess wad.. saw mr tommy outside canteen.. with his group of buddies.. i was on the phone with daddy.. so, pardon me.. went in canteen and crap.. full of ppl.. bad timing to go for dinner.. mr tommy came in canteen and i left.. how great.. haha.. i went back shop and decided to go for dinner later.. went down at ard 5.30.. wasn't so many ppl alr.. phew.. and guess wad.. i saw mr tommy AGAIN~! haha.. guess that he left just now as well.. and thanks to michael, tommy sat next to me during dinner.. haha..

was busy at work.. as usual.. now, i just feel like stayin there and not going back to school.. haha.. and my schedule for my last wk at shop is -

24 nov, Mon - 1.15-9.15pm
25 nov, Tues - 1.15-9.15pm
26 nov, Wed - 1.15-9.15pm
27 nov, Thurs - 1.15-9.15pm
28 nov, Fri - PH

thanks to korkor.. i'm off on the last day of SIP.. haha.. heard from mel that the previous schedule for mine was better one.. haha.. gotta wait till thurs den i can eat dinner with mel.. and maybe michael too.. den we can see tommy~!!!! =) gonna have dinner with all of them on Fri, ok.. actually is supper.. hahaha.. gotta wait till the rest to close the shop before we can go eat..

ok.. back to school on 1 Dec.. i'm so gonna buy the shirt from Levi's~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and wear it to school on 1 Dec.. ahahha.. ok.. and i haven got my dress for 5 Dec.. how how how?!?!?!?! and ppl.. LET'S GO LONG BAR STEAKHOUSE AGAIN~!!!!! =) AND WE SHALL EAT COD FISH~! as cooked by chef tommy~! =) OH!! i forgot to say this.. we did went to Long Bar Steakhouse for lunch.. with korkor, merlin, seok chin, and melissa.. and hor.. omg.. the manager heard wad we were talkin about.. omg.. thanks ah.. haha~!

looooonnnnnnggg time not online alr.. ppl asked me if i'm MIA.. haha.. i'm not.. its just.. was doing night shift and all.. tired.. and so, din come online and all.. and plus.. my phone siao one.. think it has been siao for months alr.. lookin forward to buying Samsung innov8~! hoho!

to mel: dun worry la.. i'll go back often to find you ok?? =) i'll go FAN korkor and michael one.. dun worry.. hahahaha~~!! =)

haha..ok.. this post is getting longer.. gotta go sleep cos i gotta wake up early tmr.. and i'm a part-time FedEx tmr.. haha~! =)

sorry~

2008-11-19T08:48:00.002-07:00

i'm felt so bad keep making people worry for me.. wasn't in very good mood at work today.. as usual, was said to have 'ham chee peng' face by korkor.. haha.. hmm.. if i said that i'm not worried.. then i'm lying.. as time goes.. the more scared and worried i am.. and thats why the more i wanna fake that i'm not.. haha.. but i think i din succeed.. still.. someone still saw through me.. ok........... haha.. hmm.. what i can say is that.. thanks to all the people who cared for me.. and sorry for making all of you worried about me.. so sorry..

fun!!=)

2008-11-15T03:19:00.015-07:00

had been busy with work.. and so am i going to stay that way for the rest of the weeks.. haha.. ok.. haven been updatin my blog for about.. 2 weeks?? and haven been online too.. had been workin for 6 consecutive night shifts.. had been havin my dinner with ppl from doc chengs.. haha.. fun man!! the manager so funnie can.. we all had been laughin in the canteen and ppl were lookin at us la.. haha.. oh my.. ok.. work has been fun fun fun and nth else but fun!!! now, i rather stay there for attachment than to go back school.. haha..

ok.. 13 nov.. i waited for 7 hours before i can eat anithing.. haha.. and the place was so cold till like siao la.. haha.. i was shaking.. plus it was raining that day too.. hmm.. one week later and tts about it..

and GOSH~! I HAD FUN YEST!! guessed all of us did have a lot of fun yest.. and sorry i was late.. ended work late as it was a busy busy day.. wasn't feelin tt good yest.. was tired.. so here comes kor kor tellin me a funnie incident.. haha.. something that happened durin one of their ex-colleague's wedding.. and GOSH~! it was so bad of them la.. haha.. ok... hmmm... so WHEN'S OUR LONG BAR STEAKHOUSE LUNCH??????? hahahhahaha!!!!! michael said my purpose of going there is not for lunch =X haha.. opppppssss... ok.. now got some things undone.. 3 reports.. Long Bar Steakhouse lunch (maybe X2).. Trip to party world KTV.. and....... i dunnoe wad else.. haha!!

ok... yest.. had our dinner at Shokudo.. yum yum! =) drank jap macha.. hmm.. not bad la.. after that.. we went down to Timbre @ The Art House.. and it was Jiajun's birthday!! hahaha.. and yest was kinda 'GREY DAY'... haha.. we wore grey yest.. er.. i forgot how many of us wearing grey together.. haha.. so.. cut the words and look at the photos~~!!!! =)

the birthday boy~!

LOOK AT THEIR HANDS~!

me and the birthday boy

The Gang~!

The Birthday Boy~ Jason

The band

Lastly, the birthday boy got saboed~!=)

our song =)

2008-11-04T09:17:00.004-07:00

getting busy and busy everyday.. so wont be online that often anymore.. cos i'll be very tired to be online.. haha.. that's life man...

today i walked pass that area.. and OMG.. i just can't stop smiling when i saw the pics.. hahaha.. oh my.. can't differentiate alr !!!!! i'm just so so so happy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

whatever it is,

it is our song..

and it has always been our song..

it will not affect anything

here's a song by the same singer =) love the way how he sings the songs and everytime, there's a different version to each =)

13 nov will be it.. and on 14nov, LET'S GO PARTY PEOPLE !!! =)

busy day.

2008-11-03T08:25:00.003-07:00

busy busy busy day EVER~!!! i have been walking around the whole arcade, up and down, here and there. shop, museum, Thos, Accounts, shop, museum, Thos, Accounts, shop, museum, Thos, Accounts. i dunnoe how many times i've been walkin here and there today alr.. i cant rmb.. haa!!.. today, i saw mel's eye candy ..er.. twice?? haha.. and she saw tommy.. haha..

today's mood was only alright.. orange colour today.. haha.. only workplace ppl will know wad this means..

after work, went off with pauline and we went raffles city to walk ard.. went to find jian hai.. den pauline went to wait for her husband and kids to arrive.. and i went off.. din go and find laogong.. so ya.. went home as i was very tired.. thru all the walking ups and downs.. haha.. and jess says i'm so dead meat alr.. and oh my.. i dunnoe wad to say.. haha.. he calls me idiot la.. wad the.. abish!! hmph! no chocs for you alr! bleah! =P

love this! =)

this is for you =) and i can't wait for 14 november!! =)

happy me =)

2008-11-02T07:37:00.004-07:00

its kinda true.. things change.. people change too.. the thing is.. not to trust people's words too easily.. words are indeed free.. and this is true.. it's like.. you can tell everybody that.. then that shows that you don't really mean what you say.. even if you do.. it's only a matter of time you're not going to mean it.. i know you quite well.. so yeah..

i'm doing fine now.. things are getting better between us.. happy happy me!! =)))))) and i got alot of friends with me.. so yeah.. thats enough for me.. enjoying my sip.. which is going to end in a few weeks time.. and we're back to school.. and i wanna watch High school musical 3.. Twilight.. the coffin.. and lots more!!! haha..

yest, i overslept.. so din meet carol to go to school.. it was raining somemore.. oh my.. brought my breakfast out to eat on the way to school.. reached school.. saw su and shile.. took the cargo lift and walked to lt.. talked about work while we were in the lt.. after tt.. had to meet LO.. so went up with huijing.. although we're off diff LO.. we're going to the same classroom.. haha.. jaclyn tan is coming down to workplace next week.. maybe this coming thurs.. after LO session, we cont to talk outside classroom.. haha.. long chat...... hmm.. i realized sth.. if we were to talk in school.. its abit........ that one la.. sigh.. why why why........... but it's alright.. next time we just find somewhere and talk.. haha=) or maybe there will be another alternative.. haha=)

ok.................. someone just call me idiot.. bleah!!!!! =P if i idiot, you also lor !! haha!! =) btw, this month is our month.. 2 more months till the end of this year.. christmas is coming too.. happy happy =)

everything about it is gone..

currently, this is the extent i can go..

what i have in front of me is future..

a future with them..

everything has been planned..

no matter where life takes us..

nothing can break us apart =)

sleepy head

2008-10-31T10:29:00.004-06:00

bought sugar rolls for my colleagues.. hoho.. din get to eat cos it was a busy busy day.. oh my.. busy till like.. can siao sia.. ok.. den went for dinner.. and omg.. the same thing happened again.. why they must disturb disturb.. sigh.. ok.. after dinner.. suddenly felt so sleepy.. so went to storeroom to rest.. as i still have time for my break.. den mel came in.. den michelle came in.. wow.. suddenly i tot.. eh.. den like that means no one outside la.. den chey.. kor kor return le la.. helped at RISIS counter.. helped to sell a few items.. quite ex leh.. haha.. den kor kor damn bad.. said sth... which i shouldn't say here.. haaa!!! and i nearly got killed today by a penknife.. who can be more bad than kor kor sia.. yest say i'm like a dog.. ask me to 'woof'.. den today say i'm like roti prata.. OMG~~!!!!... i buy sugar rolls.. den ask whether isit tommy's bd.. yeah rite.. haha.. AND THE PHOTOS ARE UP~~~!!!!!!!.. omg.. will keep walking pass there.. den everyone sure get to see them alr.. OMG~~!!!.. haa!!..

and sigh.. my bag really going to gone case soon.. that time alr told lao gong.. he kick my bag somemore.. and if spoil.. he shall buy a new one for me.. haha!! =) and my phone going gone case too le.. laogong still can laugh about it.. thanks ah.. *abish!! so.. ya.. i need a new bag, a new phone, a new dress.. ok.. maybe a few dress.. a new watch.. maybe?? haha.. omg.. cuzzie's wedding is coming.. which is like.. the week after sip..

oh my.. im losing more and more weight.. haha.. hmm.. sleepy head me now.. going back to sch tmr at 9am.. and im still awake now.. oh my.. and sunday.. i'm going to learn how to do something.. haha!! i'll let you taste them next time !! =) me go sleeeeppp leee =)

i chose this road..

i chose this path..

i will not regret..

instead..

it will be much more better..

sweeter..

tired

2008-10-30T10:30:00.003-06:00

its kinda getting worse than i thought.. next month will be it.. two more weeks i guess?? then the big thing is here.. oh my.. abit scary.. haha.. but think everything is just gonna be alright..

have to go for the shot again.. and next month.. jj's bd is coming.. haha.. will be meeting them.. gonna have fun fun fun!! =)

today at work.. it was fun and laughter again.. michael went for meeting.. and they all were shocked that michael would actually go for meeting.. haha.. funnie can.. think my face really wrote ' please ask me to wrap ' haha.. thats wad they said.. cos customers would keep asking for gift wrapping.. haha.. but it was alright.. im ok with it..

oh wow.. it was scary when me and sc were walking out to concierge to do some stuffs.. when we walked out of the shop only.. someone who was pushin those big and heavy tables.. dunnoe wad happened la.. one of the tables fell and hit the ground with a loud bang.. i was walking in front.. if i went out of the shop few seconds earlier.. think the table would have kena me la.. hmm.. went for dinner.. and something happened when i was at the canteen.. oh my.. haha..

having work tmr.. im tired alr.. tired tired tired.. jean jean!!! i can't wait to see you!!!!!! =) and where's niki and ford???? hahahaa... =)

shine =)

2008-10-27T09:34:00.004-06:00

think im getting sick.. gettin a cold soon.. think its due to the weather.. these few days it was raining and the canteen was so cold.. and workplace is quite cold too.. bleah.. and omg.. i saw tommy today!! haha.. ok..... =X hahaha..

was thinking about wad song to listen to.. so went on youtube.. saw mr. big's song - to be with you.. heard this song.. listened to the lyrics.. it reminded me that time when he called me a little gal.. haha.. omg.. and i found a song i loved so much.. by mr. big too.. heard it from a japanese anime.. miss it so much.. =)

went to canteen and i saw tommy!!! haha.. can hao lian to kor kor i saw him alr.. huaha.. ok.. had lunch with seokchin and merlin.. we ate lor mee while watchin harry potter on tv.. haha.. enjoyin our lunch.. after lunch.. not long later.. the sky started to get so dark.. felt like it was alr 5 plus or 6 plus in the evening.. den it started raining so heavily..

one more month till sip ends.. den im back to school.. den we can see each other everyday.. haha =)

helped 'friend' to think of something.. wad he can do and all.. ha said its like taiwan drama.. haha.. and he said something so rou ma can.. omg.. haha!

miss my darlings and dear =)

honey honey =)

2008-10-26T08:53:00.004-06:00

im trying hard.. very hard.. i dunnoe how to deal with this.. its kinda getting harder.. sj told me im handling well.. but to get through this.. i just dun really know how.. yeah.. just think if him and everything will be fine =)

today before work, told sj something.. which is kinda killing me.. but at work.. thanks to them.. made everything so fun.. and omg.. thanks to kor kor who kept prank call me.. yeah la yeah la.. purposely come tell me that tommy came.. ok.....

hmm.. today is totally Gift-Wrapping Day. haha.. keep on doing gift wrapping NON-STOP. going to become gift-wrapping da ren alr.. korkor say our face wrote this ' i can wrap ' .. haha.. lame.. den ppl kept asking for gift-wrapping.. den kor kor said.. sekali later ah.. we're gonna tell them, pls come back 3 days later.. haha!! cos too many ppl wanted gift wrap le.. and today's lunch was SUPERB!! imagine your lunch and dinner are provided by hotel.. and the food is great.. especially today.. have been enjoyin the lunch when mel said lets go le la.. den.. hohoho.. nicholas came and mel decided to stay.. haha!!.. omg.. her sweetie pie la.. haha..

today worked till 7.. kor kor took out the new schedule.. and he did stick to wad he told me earlier.. i will keep doing closing shift.. omg.. and its true.. i'll be workin closing shift for 4 days.. consecutive 4 days.. haha.. omg.. ok la.. i dun really mind actually.. can sleep longer ma.. haha.. start at 1pm.. end at 9pm..

tmr working mid shift again.. and im so tired and sleepy.. thinkin where to go.... hmmmm.... i just know that i'm gonna have fun this weekend =)

miss my darlings and dear =)

let's go honeymoon!! =)

2008-10-24T09:43:00.005-06:00

my dad saw some photos and said that i looked like i haven eaten from 3 days!!!! hahaha.. he said i'm skinny.. but.. got meh???.. hmmmmmm... have been talking alot with my parents these few days.. they gave me suggestions, advices and their views.. and mummy bought chocs candies for me!! haha.. which i can put it in my bag and at it when i needed it.. haha.. coooolllllll.........

was at work today.. alot of things going on right now.. very complicated.. very diff to explain.. very diff to solve as well.. mood not very good at work.. until later at work.. WE ATE THE CHOCS THAT WERE............EX_ _ _ _ D~!!!! HAHA.. omg.. kor kor dunnoe go where get it de.. oh my.. mike keep sayin can eat de.. den we opened it.. kor kor cut it open with his penknife.. den omg.. there's nth special about it la.. omg.. den kor kor very bad.. wanted to force the chocs into my mouth.. pianful can.. omg.. den kor kor really ate the chocs la!!! he took a new one.. and put the whole thing into his mouth.. and start munching it.. i just STUNNNNN~~..omg.. mel also shocked.. den ok lor.. we say ok.. since kor kor ate le.. we also eat ba.. if got anith.. the most we 3 take MC tgt tmr.. hahahah.. and we'l appear in hospital.. and kor kor very bad.. he say that i have to go there also ma.. its just that its earlier... OMG.. so bad lor.. den we all 3 ate the chocs.. mike din eat.. haha.. and it was time i'm off work.. but i stayed and chatted with them... funnie lor.. omg.. haha.. tmr will be workin from 11-7pm.. same as today.. and tmr is the only day for this whole week that im havin lunch tgt with mel.. greeeaaaattt~~..

and ouch ouch ouch.. my feet hurts.. tt day i went to see doc after screening.. lao gong very bad.. he said the doc cant do anith also.. wad for i go.. bla bla bla.. bleah la.. yeah rite.. the doc cant do anith.. doc asked me to put the bandage thingy on both of my feet every nite before i go to bed and doc gave me loads of meds.. i have to eat it 3 times a day.. and 5 capsules to eat each time..

next week i'm off on sun.. and sat i'll be going back school.. and ya.. i'm off on SAT AND SUN!! =)))

and.. let's go honeymoon!! =)

white-black-white-white =)

2008-10-23T09:47:00.009-06:00

finally have the time to update my blog.. was very busy these few days.. busy at work.. busy with everything.. had my screening and had an injection which hurts.. =( den after screening, went off.. den lao gong very bad.. heard about it.. den stepped 2 steps backwards.. so bad.. *abish! den keep asking me whether pain or not.. of cos la.. oh my.. sigh.. gotta go back to let them check it again.. sigh.. den we were talking.. den ya.. we're both the same.. direction idiots.. haha!! den he so bad.. wanna punch me.. bleah.. violent.. den i was lookin at our shoes.. both white colour de.. and i see his shoes so white.. feel like helpin him make it black.. haha.. [evil me =D] den he say my shirt very white.. den i say his shirt very black.. ok.... this is lame.. haha.. =) hmm.. den.. talkin and talkin.. funnie la he.. dunnoe wad he doin also.. and he's hair looked so much nicer alr.. haha =)

den i did went back to let them check on the injection area one week later.. and i need to go back during november to get another injection.. oh my.. and next month, i'll be spending $160 alr.. oh my.. next sat will be going back to sch.. which means next week i'll be having 2 days off!!!!! =))

ohh, orientation was so so so fun!!.. mike asked if i saw any shuai ge.. haha.. yeah rite.. the one mel wrote on her blog..and kor kor keep on bullying me only.. haha.. so bad!!.. hmm, had nite shift yest, and did morn shift today.. slept for a few hours only.. sleepy me at work today.. phew.. i'm off tmr.. and next week, i'll have 2 days off.. and i can claim 2 PH.. hoho.. how great is this.. mel's jealous.. haha..

today at work, can see that i'm abit pissed.. its not fair to everyone lor.. make the changes here and there and just kept it in silence.. crappy.. got home and i just said everything to mummy.. she and daddy had thought about it in the afternn.. sure something will happen one.. and they are right! sigh.. wad a day..

what should i do?

2008-10-15T09:04:00.003-06:00

where will we be eight years later?

i'm still thinking..

what will it be like..

but eventually,

i'll keep the promise i made..

the things that happened this few months..

made me forgot something..

and i happen to recall it yesterday..

and i've kinda decided..

orientation ended today.. its a 3-day orientation.. and i got a shock today!!! omg.. omg.. OMG~~!!!.. he look SUPER alike can.. and i realli do mean SUPER.. omg.. kor kor.. pls dun bluff me can.. although yest abit scary alr..OMG. and mel.. thanks for the sms that nearly made me laugh out during class.. the one about the chicken in the madagascar movie.. omg.

ok.. going back to work tmr.. and sip is coming to an end soon.. and very soon i can say.. and i'm off this fri.. and next fri.. will be going for the screening this fri.. and another during november.. ok.. will talk about the orientation next time.. now.. i wanna go sleep alr.. although its only 11.23pm.. haha.. cos i'm super duper tired!!!

lastly, ryan cabrera's song is nice. love it =)

tired . . . . .

2008-10-13T09:47:00.004-06:00

first day of orientation:

omg.. i'm like falling asleep during the presentations la.. think lack of sleep ba.. oh my.. den jialat man.. caught a flu.. ok.. got scolded for not taking care of myself.. had to play the ice breaking thingy.. ok.. den.. had tea breaks and all.. and lunch.. the presentation on security was funnie.. mr safaruan was funnie.. the things he said.. made the presentation more funnie lor!!.. ok.. and i had 2 cups of coffee and 1 cup of milk tea today.. how great.. den after orientation.. we went to change and went to shop to find michael and kor kor.. haha.. funnie lor.. hmm.. got a test on the third day of orientation.. ok.. this is SO GREAT.. tmr's orientation.. we'll be seeing Lex and Liana doing presentations..

ok..i dunnoe why.. i've been losing weight.. ever since like.. exams?? haha.. but.. now at workplace.. lunch and dinner all provided by hotel.. shouldn't lose any more weight mahs.. weird.. lost like.. 2 and half kg?? oh my..

hmm.. got to hear this song from mel's mp3.. it's nice =)

What Hurts the Most - Rascal Flatts

i dunnoe what to say..

i dunnoe how i should deal with this..

maybe someday,

i'll have an answer..

and never knowing..

what could have been..

and not seeing that loving you..

is what i was trying to do..

sleepy sleepy sleepy

2008-10-12T10:12:00.004-06:00

been very tiring due to work and other things.. work.. is fun.. but.. omg.. forget it.. its hard to explain also.. today, kor kor came.. he tried to scare me but.. too bad.. i looked up and saw him.. den he give that face la.. haha.. den michael came and had a chat.. ok.. they are very caring.. i know.. but.. its really ok de.. =) i'm still surviving.. haha.. had 3 months of med straight.. how great.. thanks doc

gonna have orientation tmr.. i totally have no idea wad isit about.. but Lex said it'll be bored.. haha.. funnie la.. wont be going back to shop for 3 days.. but will drop by when we're free.. hee=)

and kor kor just cant stop his 'healing power' thingy.. omg.. everytime make me wanna laugh till i cry.. but thanks alot la.. kk.. gotta go sleep le.. signing out..... . . . . . . . . . . .

p.s.: and i just can't stop listening to jason mraz - i'm yours! =)

sleeeppppppyyyyy

2008-10-09T04:52:00.003-06:00

i'm sick.. how sad.. suddenly got fever.. think its cuz of the weather these few days ba.. was going to sleep yest nite and realised that my temperature was like.. rising.. and then my cheeks were so red..haha.. thanks to 'someone' who kept me up late at nite yest.. when i'm working morning shift today.. everytime last minute we will get into this problem one.. haha.. and we're still trying to figure out why.. haha.. so bad lor.. enjoy yourself only.. bleah =P

pass few days were tiring.. but quite fun la.. worked at museum yest.. the songs kept me throughout the whole day.. from my phone, mp3, and mel's mp3.. after work, went to ps with mel for dinner.. ate mos burger.. yumyum!!~~ den saw borui.. who jus ended work.. haha.. den went home after that.. was falling asleep alr.. den someone still so fierce lor.. bleah bleah bleah =P !!!!! hmph!!!

hmm, today kor kor came back.. den we all clap hands.. hahah!! and he bought us some stuffs.. nice cookies and the cute cute key chain.. haha! =) and he kept disturbing me lor.. hai.. tmr working closing with kor kor.. sure 'jialat' one.. [ jialat as in sure kena bully ].. haha.. today's work was alright.. but wasn't feeling well after lunch.. nearly wan faint le.. and heard that we're going to have chalet next month?!?!?!?! when we close shop at 9pm?? haha!!! funnie lor.. ok.. someday we all shall go out for supper again!!! =) that time we had supper till 11 plus.. near 12am man.. haha..

sigh.. sleepy sleepy me now.. yawns................. -_- somebody's fault la~!!! bleah..

fell in love with BB Mak songs.. which is like.............. how long de songs alr..... but......... last time all those songss still nicer laa.. haha! =) got a lot of nice nice oness.. love it man!.. " Still on your side " is my fav~~~!!!!

i'm still on your side.. any time day or night =)

because you live

2008-10-03T10:22:00.004-06:00

fri, 3 oct- went to work.. i'm on closing shift today.. so tired when i reach workplace and michael could see straight that i'm really tired.. haha.. i am.. also no strength to talk.. was a super busy day for me.. the phone keeps vibrating but i do not have the time to check at all.. and also the message inbox is full..

sat, 4 oct- went back to school.. was super tired and sleepy.. i totally have no idea what to say. what i can say about today is that -

smiles and laughters are used to hide true emotions.

and i'm really tired of it. tired of everything. i have too much things to care about while i do not have time for others. you got me confused. don't know what you talking about also. ask you to explain also don't want. bleah~!!

today when i saw you, i dunnoe what to say. you also dunnoe what to say. in the end, we din say anything much. don't know what and why we're hiding also. i wanted to go and look for you, but i din. had such a hard time today. just feel like telling you everything. guessed that i'm relying too much on you. cuz you will always be there helping me. i have no idea what i'm thinking now. my world starts to fall apart, and you were there to put them back into places.

because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help

my world has twice as many stars in the sky

i'm so glad i found an angel

someone, who was there when all my hopes fell

yesterday =)

2008-10-02T06:09:00.003-06:00

its thursday..i worked mid-shift today.. and my mood is SO SO SO GOOD today..haha!! =) omg.. ok.. saturday, saturday, saturday, is coming.. gotta go back to school in the morning.. and we're not going to work that day.. and orientation is coming real soon.. ok.. back to topic.. omg.. omg.. omg.. and i just can't stop saying OMG~~~!!!! ok.. i'm sleepy now.. haha.. only slept for a few hours last night.. yawns...

oh ya, yesterday went to nydc with mel.. and i ordered a drink.. which caused me to cough for the whole night and today as well.. cuz i drank NEW YORK RASPBERRY SODA~~ which is so filled with ice.. but it was my fav!! and oh my.. someone's gonna scold me like siao alr.. =X

and i can't stop listening to Leona Lewis's "Yesterday". its nice =) and jesse mcartney's song as well.. oh my.. "Told you so" (sent by mel) and "Because you live" (sent by jh)

oh ya, forgot to say what happened on tuesday..my phone died on me.. omg.. when it was like.. i'm suppose to meet shujun and jess for movie and dinner..and they sms me, i wanted to reply but can't la..den when i checked my phone.. there was nothing la.. the phone like black out like that.. no choice.. went to use workplace de phone for awhile to let them know about it.. den we decided to meet at suntec at 7.30pm.. as i knock off at 7.. hee.. n im so sad la.. phone no batt.. sigh.. den went to meet them at topshop.. they weren't there yet so i went in topshop for a walk around.. den they came and gave me a shock la.. haha.. scary them.. den we faster left as junyuan was waiting at "Just Noodles".. den we left and went there for dinner.. and junyuan and me.. think we're the same frequency.. haha.. we just kept laughing and laughing like siao and sj and jess din get it on what we're laughing about.. ahhaha!!! i laugh till i cry out lor.. omg.. can't take it..

den it was late and we went off..jess and junyuan went to buy the tix while me and shujun went back to topshop to see wad shujun wanna buy.. haha.. we were going to watch "Mama Mia". and den someone veri cute ah.. din know Mama Mia is a movie.. [ opps.. can't say he's cute.. cuz he'll really think that i mean it.. =P ] and the movie ended at ard 11 plus.. me and shujun falling asleep in the movie alr.. we were so tired.. haha.. den we quickly went home and sleep lo... and when we went out.. den we realise that it was raining.. oh my.. wad a good weather to sleep.. haha... =)

and what i can say is that third-parties see things clearer than i do.. i don't know why they felt this way la.. but.. i also dunnoe la.. omg.. ok.. gtg.. signing off......

hee =)

2008-10-01T10:17:00.006-06:00

hoho, today i'm off.. mel sms me and asked me whether wanna go eat dinner.. so i said ok.. den went to buy merlin's present before going back to shop.. went suntec to buy it and went down to shop, which is like so near, a 15 mins walk if im not wrong..

went to shop, walked in, saw mel and pauline. den kor kor came.. den he veri automatically took the sweets from my bag.. without saying.. haha.. den went to walk ard..[ shall not say more..]

den mel came back..talked to them for awhile den we went off.. went to suntec to have our dinner.. before that, we went to topshop... ahahaha.. thanks ah, lao gong.. oh, and please dun be sad that i got so many 'boats' .. but dun worry, all my boats are gals.. =)

after that, we went off, den went to have our dinner at nydc..hohoho!! yum yum.. n we took lots of photos..it was funnie lor.. haha..den we went off to orchard, went to take neoprints and accompanied mel go NUM to buy havaianas.. after that we went off.. having work at 10 tmr.. so now.. i'm going to sleep le.. nites nites =)

escaped

2008-10-01T10:14:00.001-06:00

your voice pulls me back..

like a wake-up call..

i've been looking for the answer..

somewhere..

i couldn't see that it was right there..

but now i know what i didn't know..

2008-09-29T06:38:00.002-06:00

was not in a good mood yest..guessed im too tired from work and everything.. face was super black while at work...den korkor just kept askin me..'smile leh..' haha..but i just cant smile out la..din sleep much la..den very tired la..so korkor kept trying to make me laugh..den here comes mel.. ask her tell me a joke.. den she ask wan long or short one..den i say long one.. den she say ok..and started saying.. 'JOOOOOOOOOOOKKKKKKKKKKKKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE' WAD THA CRAP, MEL!!!!!!!!! hahahhahahah!!!! i laugh out lor..omg.. Nice one, mel~~ den i was like..ok.............. den back to moody again..so korkor started to say somethings funnie..which is not funnie at all lor.. n guess wad he did.. he put a paperbag over my head!!!! OMG!~~ den the whole day, we can hear the cars racing like siao..it was so loud..and i call it the 'bee sound'..which really sound like lor..

but today, was in a super good mood la..haha..went to work in the morning..reached super early..so sat at the bench outside for awhile before i go locker room.. den met pauline and we went to canteen..and as usual..when we work morning, we'll go for a drink first..and as usual..i drank coffee..i din sleep much last night..guessed i only slept for...2 or 3 hours?!?!?! den at work..korkor came make fun of me again..say my mood today better..next time must put something above my head..GREEN means i'm in good mood..Orange means mood ok only..den RED means my mood super not good..haha!! den i ask him do me a favour..help me go get the traffic light outside...HAAAAAAA~~~!!! all my colleagues are so super duper fun to work with..my friends at workplace are increasing..huaha!! and went to Doc Cheng during lunch break..like yesterday.. cuz of mel.. huaha! she's going to do something man..something OH MY GOSH~~! ok...nvm..den went back to work..was super duper busy today.. and when clock strikes 4.30pm, i quickly left and went to change and quickly went back to shop to pass mel something and left immediately. and guessed wad..i reached the place so super early la..like one hour before the interview..omg..haha!! met kenny and started chatting..nearly wan splash my drink on his face..he said i looked like a puffer fish!!! OMG!!~~ ok lor..ppl say i look like alot of THINGS LOR...nnnnnvvvvvmmmmm...and i got alot of names also...yeaaaaaahhhhhhhh...

movie and KBOX tmr!!!!!! =))

and in addition, I TOOK A PHOTO WITH KIMI RAIKKONEN of Ferrari ~~!!! =))

today i passed by that place..
again..
i felt nothing..
i'm glad..

told you so

2008-09-26T10:24:00.002-06:00

passed by a place which i used to go for quite some time.. the thing that came to my mind is that.. i will start to hate it.. cuz i've decided..

gotta get ready for the interview on monday.. hoho.. but that day, i wont think of other things when i'm there.. cuz i'm going there for another purpose..

he starts to dislike you.. the things you did.. made them start to dislike you..

work work work =)

2008-09-25T05:35:00.003-06:00

happy at work..and i'm enjoying it!!! =) i'm off today..and next week i'll have 2 days off!! how cool.. was doin stock count this few days..tiring yet fun.. went out for supper after work yest.. had loads of laughter during supper when melissa was tryin to make allan laugh..haha! funnie man.. ok.. cant say much so.. yeah.. i'm having lots of fun..

and i got married! .. and getting married.. haha =)

thanks to you =)

2008-09-23T10:07:00.006-06:00

ok...now i have the time to really update my blog..alot of things happened lately..n my birthday just passed!!..haha..have been celebrating it for 3 days?!?!?! haha!!..

20 sept- was working morning shift..woke up super early..haha..den was asking shujun where we're meeting and all..but she din reply at first..haha..so i dunnoe where i should go after work..haha..den after work..quickly went back to locker room to get changed and went back to shop to ask michael to sign for my attendance..den called up shujun..she asked me to go marina sq find them..at first i tot i can make my way there..since its nearby..but in the end..ok...I ADMIT I'M A DIRECTION IDIOT!!! haha..i crossed the same road for dunnoe how many times..haha!!! den in the end, called up shujun and told her i cant find my way there n i give up!! haha..den she ask me to meet her at city hall mrt..which means i have to go into raffles city..i dunnoe how to walk to the mrt station..so i kept looking out for the signs to find my way to the mrt station..finally..i found my way!!!!..ok...........hmmm..den met up with shujun..den saw jess..n decided to buy a shirt for louis since i haven bought him anith for his birthday...so went to topman..and with the help from a SA..haha!!!!! who just came back from his break..bought a tee for louis..den we went off..n shujun said she wanted to drink coffee..so...ok...we went to starbucks..and after ordering..we went to wait for the drinks..and i saw someone's back view that is so familiar..den i was like..ehhhh....IT'S JIAJUN!!! haha...den i told shujun..she still act blur somemore..omg..den i walked to the other side..and i saw louis..den i saw yuan wei..omg!!!! hahahahha....surprised man!! haha..den after awhile..yuan wei had to go..so he left..den we all went to walk around n JJ said he wanna look at ipod..so we went up..den went to see ipod..den took some pics..and saw Cullen! long long long time nv see him le..haha..ok..den went to marina square..den after walkin for awhile..someone familiar stood next to me..its ONG!! aka Don..haha..he passed me a box..and said it was my cake..den after that..we went to eat at Spageddies..and Ong had alr reserved a table..the food was great and we took loads of pics again!!...hahah..and had a long chat..den after eating..nearly all of them left to go to the toilet..den left only me n lou..den here came JJ..took some pics and the rest came back..and here comes another surprise..a cake!!! haha...omg!!..shocked me man..haha..den sang birthday song..den cut the cake..after that..lou had to leave for soccer match..omg..which was actually the next day..den he called and told us that..he super blur man!..haha..den we went to walk around..decided to go to esplanade..so andrea went to put the cake in his car n we left for esplanade..den went to walk around..fun and laughter like we always had!!!!!!!! damn fun man that day!! and after that, had to leave as i have work at 11am..haha..den we all went off and back to MS..den andrea sent me back home..thanks thanks =)

haha..and thanks for the necklace! =) LOVE IT ALOT!!!!=))

21 sept, 22 sept- had a little talk with.. erm.. 'friend' .. ok.. not a little talk.. hmm.. the things he said.. are exactly what the others said too.. so.. was thinking whether i should listen to him.. kept thinking and thinking and thinking.. asked me to sleep well..haha.. so i tried.. but still.. hai.. den next morning.. still kept thinking about what he said.. den i found out something.. i should do as he said.. and what others said.. had a little help from shujun.. called her up and chat for awhile.. in the early morning.. haha!! den kept thinking and thinking...even during work.. was at the warehouse.. haha.. gotta work even on my birthday..den colleagues started making fun of me.. so ke lian.. birthday still have to work..haha.. went for lunch at around 1 plus.. first time had lunch with them.. fun and we all had a long chat.. den bought some chocs for melissa, myself, and 2 other friends.. den went back to work.. was very tiring and after that, still had to go back to workplace..oh my..haha..after that..went home as sis bought a cheesecake for me!!! so now i have 2 cakes!! hahahah!!.. it was oreo cheesecake and I LOVED IT!!!! love cheesecake so damn much!!!.. haha!!.. and it was nice!! great!! yum yum!! din go for dinner with colleagues..so make it up to them next time ba =)

oh, and i got a call from ms irene chan.. =) she got good news for me! =) so its a birthday gift for me as well =))

23 sept- went to work..after lunch.. stayed in store room to do some stuffs which i cant say here..den they came in with something..a big plastic bag with a box.. haha.. michael went to buy a cake..haha!! thanks thanks!! so now i have 3 cakes for my birthday..haha!! n the cake was great!! nice!!! den went off work earlier today to go to school..couldn't make it on time so daddy came to fetch me to school.. reached before 6..[heng..thanks to daddy =)] saw kenny so talked for awhile..after that, left and met shujun to go home tgt.. den she asked me something.. which i have no answer.. hmmm.. i was so happy today!!! SUPER DAMN HAPPY TODAY!!!! SUPER DUPER HAPPY TODAY!!! cuz i made a decision today.. a decision i wont regret..

thanks =)

Thanks to all! =)

2008-09-22T09:49:00.007-06:00

a very big THANK YOU to all who celebrated my birthday with me..

i had lots and lots of fun..

and thanks for the present

I LOVE IT ALOT!!

haha!

and now that i have all of you with me..

it's enough.. =)

and thanks to those who gave me alot of advices..

and thanks to ''mou mou ren'' who said things that really helped me to totally make a final decision =)

and i did listen to you! haha =)

Thanks to all again! =)

Love you guys so so so much! =)

the last time

2008-09-16T09:09:00.006-06:00

super busy with Sip. so. erm. i dunnoe what to write also. i'm so so so tired, both physically and emotionally. but work keeps me busy, which made me feel..erm..dunnoe how to say also.

why did things become like this? i don't know.

what if i say..

the day i asked you to meet me..

will be the last time..

maybe what i told you have set you thinking..

why did i say it that way..

wanting to meet you "again"..

i don't know whether i should do this..

to end this..

all of this..

"Just We" by M.Family..

my favourite song from the show..

try finding the english translation of this song..

maybe you'll understand it all..

i cry, i cry

it's shaking from the pain that's in my head

but i won't let it die, i won't let it die

i'm falling apart

don't say this won't last forever

you're breaking my heart

don't tell me that we will never be together

we could be, over and over

we could be, forever

Secondhand Serenade - It's not over

"your call" by secondhand serenade is nice too =)

endless love

2008-09-08T04:04:00.001-06:00

for you..

My endless love..

for you,dino =)

2008-09-06T00:00:00.004-06:00

for you:

i dunnoe if you'll see this..

what i wanna tell you is that i'm not angry with you..

i understand..

maybe the time isn't right..

maybe things will be different in the future..

like what you've told me before..

what i believe is that all the things you told me before aren't lies..

you're not prepared..

so am i..

maybe all we need is time..

if you didn't appear..

i think i'll still be dreaming..

i remember..

whenever you asked me something..

i'll say "consider consider.."

den i wont get back to you..

one of the answer i wanna give you..

is the song i put in my profile..

the other answer to your question..

if you let me to..

den it'll be everyday of your life..

you said 'Forever'..

and i said 'for a very long time..'

you said it's different..

actually..

come to think of it..

it's actually the same..

i wont change..

like what i promised you..

i'll wait..

Mariah Carey-Always be my baby

(do do do dop)

(do do doop do doop da dum)

(do do doop dum)

(do do doop do doop da dum)

(repeat)

we were as one babe

for a moment in time

and it seemed everlasting

that you would always be mine

now you want to be free

so I'm letting you fly

cause i know in my heart babe

our love will never die,no!

you'll always be a part of me

i'm a part of you indefinitely

boy don't you know you can't escape me

ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

and we'll linger on time can't erase a feeling this strong

no way you're never gonna shake me

ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

(do do doop)

(do do doop do doop da dum)

(do do doop dum)

(do do doop do doop da dum)

i ain't gonna cry no

and i won't beg you to stay

if you're determined to leave boy

i will not stand in your way

but inevitably you'll be back again

cause ya know in your heart babe

our love will never end no

you'll always be a part of me

i'm part of you indefinitely

boy don't you know you can't escape me

ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

and we'll linger on

time can't erase a feeling this strong

no way you're never gonna shake me

ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

i know that you'll be back boy

when your days and your nights get a little bit colder

ooohhhi know that,you'll be right back, baby

oh, baby believe me it's only a matter of time

you'll always be a part of me (oooohhhh)

i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)

boy don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)

ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

and we'll linger on (and we will linger on)

time cant erase a feeling this strong (ohhhh)

no way you're never gonna shake me (oh baby)

ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

you'll always be a part of me (yeah yeah oooohhhh)

i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)

boy don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)

ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (no no)

and we'll linger on (you and I will always be)

time cant erase a feeling this strong

no way you're never gonna shake me (you & I)

ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (you & I)

(do do doop)

(do do doop do doop da dum)

(do do doop dum)

(do do doop do doop da dum)

you and i will always be

no way your never gonna shake me

you and i will always be

outing =)

2008-09-05T22:53:00.005-06:00

went to watch money no enough 2..after so long..haha..cos no time to catch it..met jess to go peninsula plaza first..den went cineleisure to meet jiajun..he said he'll be late but he isn't la..haha..hmm..went to buy movie tickets..and it was long..

haha..hmm..louis suppose to come too but he gotta meet proj mates and he has league at night..so..nvm..next time..why is the tickets so long? cos we're watching 2 movies!! haha..ok..money no enough 2 was funnie!! really super funnie!!..but the last part was sad la..jess cried like siao..haha..er..i did cry too la..but hold back abit..hee..den we took some pics outside the cinema..jess did something that made us laughed like siao..haha..the garfield FELL!! jess's fault..haha..

den we took pictures with chicken little..a blue bear..dunnoe wads his name..nemo..n Stitch!!=)

hmm..after the first movie..we still got around 1 hour to the next one..so went to walk ard heeren..den it was time..so went back cineleisure to catch the 2nd movie..it was so so so so so cold at the cinema..3 of us were like..freezing!!..haha..we watched Wall.E and it was cute!! er..there wasn't much conversations la..but wall.e was cute..den after the movie..we went out of cineleisure..cos we're all freezinggg..

den we're thinking of a place to have our dinner..just couldn't think of any..den we decided to go airport to eat sakae sushi!! and it kinda brought back some memories about my last day of work..my colleagues treated me lunch at sakae sushi..haha=) hmm..kinda miss those times..actually not kinda la..i miss those times so much..

den we headed down to airport..called up shujun..ask her come find us..haha..in the end..she did..got down at T3 and walked to T2..the passageway was scary..and jiajun just kept making fun of me..so bad..den we went to wait for shujun to walk to burger king area..from far..really la shujun...sorry la..it was quite dark and i short-sighted ma..haha..(cos i said shujun really looked like a malay from far..den jiajun super bad..he said something..ok..dun say here.. =P)

went to sakae sushi..and we kept taking photos..den jiajun keep taking photos of the computer..omg..haha..n the switch..the floor tiles..omg..den stayed there for quite awhile..den after that..we went to the viewing mall..took photos again..hmm..dunnoe when we'll meet up again and go watch movies..hang out..have fun..hope it'll be soon!! =)

- - - - -

2008-08-29T03:31:00.002-06:00

you won't be able to find me anywhere

Water Runs Dry

2008-08-28T10:16:00.002-06:00

We don't even talk anymore
And we don't even know what we argue about
Don't even say I love you no more
Cause sayin' how we feel is no longer allowed
Some people will work things out
And some just don't know how to change

Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby

Now they can see the tears in our eyes
But we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts
Well maybe that's a pain we can't hide
Cause everybody knows that we're both torn apart
Why do we hurt each other
Why do we push love away

Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby
Don't do it baby

Some people will work things out
And some just don't know how to change
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We might watch our whole lives pass us by
Let's don't wait till the water runs dry
We'll make the biggest mistake of our lives
Don't do it baby
Don't do it baby
Don't do it baby

~ Water runs dry ~

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2008-08-28T06:13:00.007-06:00

exams are over..i should say 'EXAM'..it was a killer one..i can say..i see the 'Z' fly away already..open the question paper..my mind blank blank one..question 2..dunnoe how to answer..but at least know abit..question 3..TOTALLY DUNNOE HOW TO DO..question 4..nearly everyone WROTE THE SAME ANSWER WHICH WAS THE WRONG ONE..question 5..know how to do..wth is wrong man..but wadever..its over now..dun think i'll do well either..

had fever for 4 days..ever since monday..din wanna see doctor so drag till today..doctor was shocked la..cuz 4 days le den i go find her..got medicines..which i see le wanna faint alr..omg..

holiday starts now...actually its also something not to be happy about..hmm..one say wanna go out..watch movie..go cycling..i dunnoe..another one say wanna go party..ok..shall go for both??maybe??..shall see..

wadever it is..the holidays are short..about one and half weeks i guess.. on the 8 sept there's SIP talk and 2 days later..SIP starts..

i think time is all you need now..

and my love for you is blind

I loved you more than you'll ever know

sorry

2008-08-26T03:41:00.003-06:00

Mariah Carey feat Boyz II Men - One Sweet Day

lifehouse-you and me

2008-08-24T15:47:00.001-06:00

Just We

2008-08-21T08:22:00.004-06:00

The one i should treasure is with me..

Yet i didn't see..

Tears and sighs..

Will dissipate with time..

As now I have you with me..

~ M.Family - Just We ~

20.08.2008

2008-08-20T01:50:00.005-06:00

caught a flu..and now my voice has changed..bleah...hmm..now is study week..and next thurs is exams..retail branding..omg..sure difficult..*abish*

and wow..i din realised this till someone told me =)

today is 20.08.2008 *20082008* haha..this is really WOW.. It happens only once in a lifetime.. just like some stuffs..which will only happen once in a lifetime.. where there's no second chance.. and hence, we should grab it while we can..

keep the faith

no matter where we're going,

it starts from where we are..

♥♥♥

the end or the beginning?

2008-08-19T01:39:00.003-06:00

would someone please just say, "That's enough"

so that we can all forgo the past..

look towards the future..

and live in a world where there's only you and me..

it was a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

Olivia Ong- All Out Of LoVe

2008-08-17T10:13:00.003-06:00

♥ Olivia Ong- All Out Of LoVe ♥

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Oh, what are you thinking of?What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?What are you thinking of?

I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Im all out of love what am I without you
I know you were right believing for so long ..

Just We =)

2008-08-15T10:08:00.001-06:00

M.family - Just We =)

- - -

2008-08-12T01:36:00.006-06:00

cause there's something in the way you look at me

it's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece

you can say that i'm avoiding..

but that's the only way i can move on..

sometimes avoidance is bliss..

it kinda makes you stop thinking about it for awhile..

but only for awhile..

the thing is that..

i see no end to this..

it's like a movie that keeps repeating itself..

non-stop..

every now and then,

it returns..

sometimes,

i would have a thought that.. how great things would be..

if all these didn't happen at all..

things would be easier..

life would be happier..

bye bye, sadness..

hello, happiness..

-impossible-

try Ctrl+A

2008-08-10T11:16:00.002-06:00

love this song! =)

Matchbox20 "Time After Time" (Live Cover)

- -

2008-08-10T02:27:00.008-06:00

hoho..no lesson till..i dunnoe when..tues?? wed?? no idea..haha..study week startin soon..exams getting nearer..after exams would be SIP..gonna have a SIP talk before actual SIP starts..but i forgot when is it..8 sep?? 9 sep?? hmm..feels like august is ending soon..here comes September..and here comes the issue i've been waiting..

i'm getting more and more afraid in a lot of things..

afraid to know the truth..

afraid to ask..

ever since i saw the pm..

the fear keeps increasing..

i'm afraid that all these isn't real..

i still find it hard to believe

that you actually said forever

time is all i need..

like what someone told me once before..

time heals all wounds..

maybe i took too long to heal this..

or maybe its not even long enough..

cause i don't really feel the difference..

good luck, jess!

2008-08-07T01:52:00.003-06:00

AND ME TOO!!

to JESSICA SEE KO LI!!~~

ALL THE BEST FOR TODAY!! =))

happenings =)

2008-07-30T08:05:00.004-06:00

mon,28july-went to sch for lect..met josh on the bus..we 3 went to lt,sat down,started talkin crap..haha..den was talkin about OSIP..den josh say go Sentosa..den i say go Pulau ubin..do wad leh? rent ppl bicycle...hahaha!!..den give people map of pulau ubin..den when free..help the ppl there take care of their roosters..haha..ok..lame..hmm..after lect..went to buy drinks and back tot tutorial classroom..got back results for presentation..mr seah veri bad..haha..said about cutting marks..sooooo baaaddd..

after tutorial..me n carol went opp sch to eat minced meat noodle..but too bad..the stall wasn't open..so we ate wanton noodle..den josh and jianglong came..hohoho..say how come we nv call them..actually we wanted to..but they still waitin for results ma..so we went off first..hee..den we all went back sch for our proj meetings..hmm..stayed in sch till like...9 plus at night..just doing SM presentation stuffs..was so so so tired..sleepy too..omg..den shujun came back sch to meet me so we can go home together..haha..she so good..hee =)

thanks to the big mug of milo mummy made that kept me thru the night..hoho=)

Ps: i realli got worried.. just.. hmm.. but phew.. nothing's wrong.. =)

tues,29july-went to sch..having presentation at 1..after presentation..continued having presentation but all of us were like..half dead..stayed in sch till around 5..den left sch with carol and felicia..went home and i already felt like sleeping..but not done with RB presentation stuffs yet..so..sigh..tiring..

went online..started doing speech..sleepy me.. yawns...

wed,30july-was on the way to bedok and josh called..super lame man him..call me to ask if 69 left bedok alr..cuz he tot me and carol were waiting for 69..so he can get up the same bus..lame man..den told him i'm not IRis..huaha..den reached bedok..met carol and saw her friend, weiteck..WAH..make me laugh till my stomach pain man..haha..he's lame too..huaha..den we all keep talkin lame stuff..even after we got up the bus..so i think the people on the bus must have thought we were siao..hahahah!!!..den went up to proj room..met the gals..

rehearsed for awhile..saw a msg..vitamin l ..sorry la..i dunnoe wads that ma..cuz i tot you meant vitamin I(i) hoho..cuz it looks the same on sms.. (l) and (I) hee =)

o..we went to buy lunch..it was the first time i bought food from the chinese cooked food at biz park..WOW..i can say this man..the food is nice!!! hohoho!! =) was eatin in proj room and me n carol just cant stop sayin how nice the food is..hahaah..o..and i drank iced milo..n i regretted it man..make me cough oni..den we went for the presentation..and i said 'BLEAH' when i was presenting...OPPS... :X den after presentation..we went back proj room for awhile and left after we think there wasn't anything else to discuss..den shile left..den me,carol and felicia left together..haha..went to tamp..n went home..

when i reached home..sat on the sofa awhile..den from sit become lie down..den lie down become fall asleep..haha..den woke up again..reply msg..den fell asleep again..hahahha!!!..super tired man..sigh..i shall slack for few days den study..hohoho!! gotta treat myself better..hoho=)

hmm..wan make me angry with you only..hmph!! but i can't outtalk you at all..hai..haha.. pls take good care of yourself~!=)

WHAT A TIRING 3 DAYS!!!!! oh man..falling sick soon..having runny nose now..=(

and carol say i'm going to have bar chor mee face already...huaha!!!! shhhhhh~~~~

hoho..having a hair cut tmr!!!=) we same same=))

gonna have SM test on mon..Monday's routine.. retail EDP tutorial from 12-1pm..den break till 6pm..test starts fro 6-7pm...its gonna be a long monday again..........................................................

after this i have time alr!! =))

1 more to go..

2008-07-25T10:20:00.003-06:00

finally submitted SM manual today!!!! phew..after workin on it for so so so long..met carol at 10 plus at bedok..went to engine sch to test print our manual..cuz it cant't be seen using windows comp..we went to engine sch eazi printing and realised Mac and Window Vista are friends!!..haha..cuz we are able to view the print preview on windows vista..and not on windows XP..this made me and carol so worried yesterday night..we met early cuz we're afraid that we have to redo everything..but phew..thank god..everything's fine..den we went to print out all the info..in the end..it seems like we're workin part time at the photocopying shop..haha..cuz we changed the settings till it is able to be printed out the way we wanted it to be like..we figured it out ourselves..den after tt..went to FAL to print out product info..den went back engine sch to photocopy it out..its like.walkin here and there..kinda tiring..met some of our friends at the shop..haha..n they were funnie..den after tt..went to design sch to print out cover page..den we found a place to sit down and finish up the work..ppl were just lookin at us as they walked by..guessed it was kinda weird for us to sit somewhere ard engine sch there to do our work..haha..hmm..filled up the form..finished doing our 'book'..put it into the envelope..and off we go for lunch at opposite sch..haha..went to eat minced meat noodle again..hohoho..although i just ate it on mon..haha..

walked back to sch and it was drizzling..and i knew it..im gonna be sick again..caught in the rain for 2 days..hoho..oh my....went to lecture..it was kinda a short one..ended ard 3.15..was fallin asleep in the LT..thanks to the funnie stuffs the lecturer told us..haha..it kept me awake somehow..

hmm..after lect..stayed in sch for awhile for some proj discussions..after tt..went off..met shujun..and i got something from her!!! ahhaah =)) woohoo...

now here i am..after SM manual submission..back to SM presentation..sigh..may be havin 2 presentations in one day..SM and RB...oh my..... -_- |||

i thought everything would be over after 1 august..looks like im wrong..there's SM end sem test on 4 august..oh my..shall endure till then..sigh..

exams timetable's out..RB paper on 28 august..after that i shall enjoy my hols..and off for sip..

should i or should i not... hmm...

counting down..2 months from now..

LA~LA~LA~

2008-07-16T03:11:00.004-06:00

YEAH!!! jie's back from taiwan!!! hahaha...bought alot of yummy food!!..sweet peanuts..tai yang bing..machi..and the food i've been waiting for~~~~ Jin Men Gong Tang!!!! ahhahaha!!! woohoo~!~!~~!..FAV!!!..ok..and she also bought me alot of clothes..and i REALLY DO MEAN ALOT!!!!!!! the clothes she bought for me is more than what she bought for herself..haha!! thanks! =) love ya the most man!!!..hahahaha!!!..o..and she bought me a hoodie!! MY FAV AGAIN!!!..(ok..i can see that i've been using a lot of cap locks..^_^) yeah..hoodie hoodie hoodie..like adding on to my collection of hoodies..it's grey and it has a lot of graphics on it..full of graphics..N I JUST LOVE IT!!!~~ woohoo...how great it is to go taiwan!! haha..hmm..i wanna go too!!!=)) next yr next yr...hee=)) everything shall be left till after graduation..after grad wanna go bangkok..wah~!~! hee..~~~!!

going back to sch tmr for project meeting..and gals!! we all can do it!~~ ahha!! =) we shall continue working our heads off till 1 august and we're done with projects!! so hang on!!! =))

and after 1 august..here comes end-sem test and exams..and SIP..and back to school..

and good luck to buddy..hope you get chosen for the school team!! =)

and counting down..2 months and 9 days more..

always be my baby-david cook =)

2008-07-14T06:19:00.003-06:00

i just realized..

it was because of you..

i don't feel any sadness..

anymore..

time can't erase a feeling so strong..

angel

2008-07-11T01:02:00.003-06:00

every memory just came back, like it usually has all along..

it keeps hanging on there somewhere..

coz i've always felt that i could have done something..

something to change all these..

they have their limits..

and i know that..

but at least i'm grateful..

they granted a wish..

for just one day..

You Are Like Light for the Whole World

held back to the past

Thanks to all the teachers and friends who tried to help..

It took you a long time..

All the encouragement and all..

It did help.. somehow..

But everything went back to the starting point..

Which also means I'm back to square one..

But this time..

I'll try my best..

To leave everything behind..

timeless..

give my love

2008-07-10T08:17:00.002-06:00

When I look in your eyes I can see that you

Want to be with me but you're so scared

And I don't know what to say or do

But the tears keep falling from your eyes

And I know that

Times won't change my love

And I can't do nothing to keep you

Oh, I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight

Give my love through kisses oh so bright

And you know that I can't change my love

Take my love all through the night…

As the hours pass away

You think that love ain't here to stay

Feel a beat from your chest

But you don't give doubt a moment's rest

You dream the future and all you see is dark

Listen to your heart, baby, the truth will set sparks

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight

Give my love through kisses oh so bright

And you know that I can't change my love

Take my love all through the night…

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight

Give my love through kisses oh so bright

And you know that time won't change my love

Take my love all through the night…

I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight

Give my love, through kisses oh so bright

And you know that I can't change my love

Take my love all through the night…

manual-in-need

2008-07-09T11:35:00.003-06:00

how great will it be to have a manual to this..

so anyone can just flip to the page..

that has the answers to their questions..

so things won't be that difficult..

that caused people to fall into the state they are in now..

i need to go there again..

this time i'll be able to break the previous record..

napfa

2008-07-07T09:01:00.004-06:00

super damn busy with sch's projects..turning into a panda soon??!!..haha..ok..was exempted for napfa..and so was joshua..din wanna go to sports hall..but josh say go support them..ok lor..go there for fun..haha...den we all went to eat at biz park and josh paid for us..den we all 4 chatted like siao.talked about movies and all..o..who 4? me, carol, josh and jianglong (carol's lao da)..haha..den after tt..we all went to sports hall..and we all stayed there and chatted with the rest there..i walked around and ppl were askin me if im not taking..when i said i got Mc..they all were like..'eeee...'..ahha!!..den kiong veri bad..ask me stand at the audience seats there and shout to jian hai the timings..haha..so bad lor..den the bad bad jian hai..keep disturbing me..i lend you my watch den u disturb me..hai..de the whole napfa thing was veri confusing..in the end..some gals just gave back the tag thingy and we left..den we went to play BASKETBALL!!!...haha..n i got muscle ache after tt day..painful..we stayed at E!hub till quite late den went home..

hmm..suppose to have presentation for retail edp today..in the end..mine is next wk..lucky carol presented today..den went to orchard after school..

to josh, pls stop askin me to change my display pic..

and pls stop readin jokes from the website..thank you.. =)

to jian hai, pls stop saying that i'm fierce..thank you.. =)

oh ya..someone say today wanna go ikea buy table ah???? haha!!=)..shhh~~~ =))

diputs

2008-07-04T10:46:00.001-06:00

i knew it..

why didn't i warn you???????

wsid

2008-07-01T07:32:00.006-06:00

first, it started out of nowhere..

then, everything starts to get complicated..

then, i don't see any ending to this..

it became something i don't wanna remember

when everything ends..

what is left?

when everything turns to hate..

what is left?

what should i or am i suppose to believe?

confused..

i need to go there again!!!!!!!~~~

sch ||

2008-06-30T10:54:00.003-06:00

went to lect..reached there abit early oni..but the door wasnt opened yet..so waited with the rest outside engine Lt..den chuan xun came to open the door..haha..den went in..lecture was...erm..interesting..where the lecturer suddenly speak so loudly..haha..scary..after lect went for tutorial..tutor late..so we all waited outside..down there chit chatting..phew...today not presentation..haha..oni reviewing of our individual reports..mr seah veri bad lor..take attendance tt time..call out my name den laugh..den when call my name go talk bout report tt time also laugh..hai..so bad..he's the tutor who everytime see me den wanna hide or fake faint one..hahahah!!!...

ok..presentation will be next monday..dress code: business casual...so wad does tt mean? i also dunoe..ahha..after tutorial..went to submit SM-IJ..the report i've been doing for 3 days..haha!!!..last min so mani ppl tell me diff stories..hai..but i think is cuz diff tutor diff expectations?? tts why all of us confuse alr..hmm..but submitted alr..so..tts it =))

proj meetin tml at 1..den got lecture from 4-6pm..fever fever pls go go go..or u wan me put red carpet den wanna go off??????? hhhhhhaaaaaaaiiiiiiiii.... [this is the part carol doesn't get it..haha!! =)) ]

sleepy me now..signing off......

o..there's a song i like..haha!! =))

for you

2008-06-27T11:39:00.001-06:00

friend

2008-06-27T10:37:00.002-06:00

what has actually happened that left us in this state..

i really don't know..

i think we have the same question..

like what i've said before..

and i know you're shining down on me from heaven..

like so many friends we've lost along the way..

i'll leave it for now..

for you to continue this..

SM-IJ

2008-06-26T04:03:00.003-06:00

finally started on SM IJ..which is due next mon..haha..abit late to start on this..but phew..retail EDP was done..which will due tmr..went to ask mr dominic seah some stuffs..we went to 1st avenue and when he saw me..he was like..going to faint alr..haha..fake one lor..cuz i everytime go ask him stuffs..so when he saw me he sian alr..haha..found out there was something we did wrongly..so he was kind enough to tell us wad we had to write for tt part..thanks! =) haha..now we know where to find him when he's not in the office..haha..

hmm..planning to finish IJ probably by tmr..if possible..n i just got sick again..mummy wanna strangle me alr..haha..

to jess and sj: let's go out next sat!!! =)) hahahaha!!~!~~!~!~!..

and my heavy heart sinks deep down under you

and your twisted words

I'm trying to let you hear me as i am.

tiring..

2008-06-25T06:44:00.004-06:00

was walking to sch today..n saw jack's bike pass by..haha..yellow bike..attract attention..haha..den saw him at car park..so waited n walked to class..den he say how come i walk so fast..its like..got fast meh..hahaha!!..went to class..got back our papers..n joshua started askin how much i got..abish!!..he won me this time..haha..he was like..damn happy can..but too bad..felicia scored higher than him..haha..after proj consultation..we all went off n went home..

now projs are takin up nearly all of our time..tues,wed,thurs,fri..also got proj meeting..omg!!

but no choice la..hai..

don't you think you went too far..

i learned the hard way..

and said things you like to hear..

counting down..3 more months

sch starts!`

2008-06-23T05:06:00.004-06:00

chum chum..my specs realli got prob..alot of ppl have been tellin me tt...but i tot it was nothing..but now..hai..but nvm la..seldom use also..haha..

i tot today no lect n tut..so din go sch..in the end..got lecture..n somebody veri happy i din go la..hai..so bad..but phew...realli is no tutorial..hmm..gotta rush proj alr..think tml gotta show tutor..sigh..tiring..

it's time..
it's time..
it's time..

no title

2008-06-19T10:44:00.004-06:00

19 june:

met jess at parkway at 2..was late abit..hee..den we went to eat..but i oni ate dessert...haha..wasn't that hungry..n jess was tellin me the reason why..sigh..dun talk about it le..den louis called..said he's goin out alr..den we went to esprit..den he called again..when he came..we went to hide ard the shop..haha...he cant find us until the end..i took a step out n he saw us..not fun alr..haha..den we all walked..den stopped n talk..den turn out we're like blockin the way..haha..den we went to pei him eat..den he ate abit n said not nice den stop eatin alr..den we went to walk ard..den called jiahong..ask him come fetch us to ecp if he's drivin..den he just said ok..haha..den we went to buy drinks..waited for awhile den jiahong came..we went to ecp to cycle..super funnie lor..we went to rent the bike..den the bikes were kinda small for the guys..haha..we cycled for a while..i feel like dyin alr..we started from area C..n cycled for awhile..we decided to rest for awhile..den louis walked to the beach there while we 3 went to climb up the..er..dunnoe wad u call tt...den lou came back with his feet so dirty..n his feet kena the oil la..haha..act smart la...heng we din go with him..or else we kena too..haa..den we sat for awhile den lou went to wash his feet..jiahong pei him den left the 2 of us..den we went to sit on the bench there..talked for awhile..n we saw sth in the sky..the clouds =)) hee..n i just feel like stranglin myself alr..hai..=(((((( den they came back..den we all chatted..n decided to continue cycling..n we cycled all the way to area G..i nv went so far lor..n i saw qianghan n xiaoqing too..haha..we stopped by a place where ppl were playing..erm..cars??..toy cars??..haha..dunnoe wads tt la..we also passed by a place where there were filled with flowers!! just like tt time during chinese new year de sentosa flowers 2008!!..n sth went by my mind..hai.. =(( den we cont cycling..n we were thinking we can ride all the way to changi airport alr lor.. den we decided to turn back..n my legs wanna break alr..den jiahong were saying..its cent for cent..'wu chao suo zhi'...haha..$3 for 2 hours..its reallly cent for cent..den i tell him we pay $3 to torture ourselves lor..haha..den the weather was so so so good...so windy..n we could see sunset..haha..den we saw chiwei n cassandra too..den we pass by them..we all were like..'eh eh eh..' haha..den wave byebye..den we cont cycling..n i nearly bump onto jiahong's bike..haha..sorry sorry..hmm..i that day siao alr..nearly fall a few times..also nearly bump onto louis's bike too..hee..sorry ah..den we cycled back to the shop..returned the bike..me n jess went to the toilet while the guys go get the car..den after tt..got up the car n on our way to dinner at astons's specialist!! =)) jiahong's bro reached early n helped us queue first..den bangzhou n andy reached too..den we reached too..ahha..den waiting for shujun..after we went in for awhile..shujun came..went out to meet her..den opps..shall not say wad happened..den the food came..we all shared our food..passing to each other's plate here and there..funnie lor..den jiahong n shujun got to know about wad happened..den they cute lor..kinda like..console??dunoe la..my english veri bad..hee..hmm..thanks =)

den jiahong bluff us..say he go toilet in the end ..he went to the counter n paid for the dinner..n he was shocked when he turned n saw me behind him..haaha...say we treat him become he treat us..hai..den birthday boy knew about the shirt we bought for him..NO FUN ALR!!!...haa..den after dinner..we walked to parkway..went to mac..sat down n played 'zhong ji mi ma'...ahha..the person who lost have to go buy ice cream..who lost again gotta eat the ice cream..phew..coz i cant eat..so bangzhou say he'll help me if i lost..hee..thanks!..den jiahong walked away to answer a phone call..den we planned something..n jiahong came back..n we cont playin the same game..n jiahong "LOST"..n he ate a spoonful of ice cream..so i think its easy to guess wad we've planned!!!! =)) ahhhaahahah!!!..we stayed till ard 10 plus..den shujun had to go sch the next day..so we decided to go home..

it was a fun fun fun day!!! =)) n happy birthday jia hong!! =)

21 june:

went to meet shujun n jess yest..n we went to orchard..we went to eat fried mars bar!! nice!! =)) n too bad i cant eat ice cream..haha..went to shop ard..n i saw huiping at far east..den we cont to walk ard..shujun bought a dress..well..i din buy anith!! haha =)den we walked to ...er...nowhere??..haha..den went to heeren n watch the performance by Fantastic Crew..it was great!!..den we recalled the things we did back in sec sch...haha..unforgettable!!! den went to cine for dinner..cont to walk ard..den decided to go home..

n i got a new dress!! =)) yes! =) happy me again!! =)

22june:

later..i'll be going to my aunt's house..for housewarming i guess..haha..n im not done with individual assignments yet..hmm..sch startin tmr..tiring..hai..

i don't wish to know anything..

i'm getting tired..

tired of everything..

and i think now is really the time..

love song

2008-06-18T07:54:00.003-06:00

someone's birthday is tmr..n its jiahong's!! haha..we're goin to celebrate it tmr..will be meetin jess earlier..the guys will be comin later..plus louis sure will late..haha..we all know tt..huaha!!..n we're going ecp for dinner!!..happy happy=)) tmr sure rain one..i went to check weather forecast..haha..if rain..den we shall not go cyclin n go for bowlin instead..cool..

how i wish i didn't get to know any of these

I'm not gonna write you a love song

sky of love!! =)

2008-06-15T07:33:00.004-06:00

celebrated second sis's birthday yest..n me n elder sis went out to buy the cake..n i also went to buy the dvd i've been waitin for so long..n it's finally out..din get to watch it when it was out..was workin durin the holidays so din have the time to go n watch..plus shujun went to watch with her friends alr..haha..n wads the show? its 'Sky of Love'!!! =)))..happy happy!! finally its out..den after buyin the cake n all..we went home..n at night we celebrated her birthday..

den at night, went to lower seletar reservoir there with parents n second sis..n we went around there n stopped by the road..went across the road with mum to buy ice cream as sis wanted to eat..we bought the ice cream from those seller who rode their bike around n sell ice cream de..n he told us this kind of traditional ice cream is still nicer la..haha..ok..den we went back..n my parents n sis started eatin..n me..as usual..watchin them eatin ice cream right in front of me..while i eat my pack of roller coaster..haha..we stood by the railin there..n we saw rats runnin across..n dogs too..n there were so so so many ppl there..the road was like..near fully parked..cuz the ppl are waitin for ..something..which will oni start on 12mn..we din stay till so late la..after eating..we went off..

=)

2008-06-13T03:42:00.003-06:00

looking back on the things that happened..

tears were somewhere near..

but the feeling..

instead..

was happy..

this is what you always did

everything represented this..

saying it is easy..

but whether its the truth or not..

only the person who said it knows it best..

doing it is difficult..

it's something i know how to tell others..

but i don't know how to tell myself..

counting down..3 n a half months more..

proj.. =(

2008-06-13T02:02:00.002-06:00

went to ICA building with sis yest..she's going to taiwan on 11july..wanted to go n change her photo but turns out that she has to change for a new passport..haha..i din change mine as for the time being dun need la..next yr den change ba..after grad..we shall go on holidays!!! =)) happy happy!!..

mummy say i'm still like a kid..eat medicine must have chocolate candy beside me one..haha..who ask the medicine so...ewwwww...

sigh..2 individual projs n 3 group projs..omg..wads holidays man??!!??..hai..

it's settled..i dun have to go for the test..er..i think..shall see wad they say when sch reopens..most prob dun need..but the rest have to attend..

i don't know what happened between you two..

but i think you'll tell me when we meet..

but what i can say is..

we don't wanna see you like this..

it hurts..

we know..

but it hurts us too when we see you like this..

KUNGFU PANDA~! =))

2008-06-12T10:49:00.004-06:00

went to watch kungfu panda with louis n jess yest..it was COOOOLLLLL...n veri veri veri nice n FUNNIE..everyone shld watch it..we bought the tickets late..cuz dear mr lou was late..haha..den we had to sit at the first row..our necks wanna break alr..haha..n dear mr lou say i copy him by using the same wallet...pls lor..is u copy me can..haha..we bought the tix n lou went missin..haha..called him n he said he was in the toilet n said sth funnie..cant hear properly also..den we went in cinema..n just becoz he dun wanna seat beside other ppl den wanna break up me n jess by sittin in the middle..abish u la..so bad oni lor..den the movie started..lou just keep laughin n laughin on everything..for example..it was showin the crane flying pass..n he can laugh so loud just becuz of tt..omg lor!!haha..den the ppl beside us who were sittin along the same row..they all just sat on the floor..haha..den the air con in the cinema was like..so cold as if we're in the north pole can..3 of us down there freezin lor..after the movie..we faster went off before we 3 become ice..den went to walk ard heeren..den decided to go n eat..lou still say its too early to eat but we still went ahead instead..he brought us to lucky plaza to eat indonesian food...we all ate the same..fried chicken rice...n i ordered 'happy soda'..den he lame la..said sth i alr knew he was goin to say tt..which is.."drink happy soda sure happy.." -_-|||.. haha..den he faster went off first as he was late for STH..haha..after eatin..we went off too..

next show i wanna watch.. The Happening~! =)

to lou..still say i laugh veri loud..pls lor..no one laughs louder than YOU in the cinema lor..except for the guy who shouted out 'LOL'...

to jess..if things are not going back the way it is..i think it's better to move on.. =) love ya!~! =)

next stop..ECP!!! long time nv go le..haha..it shall be this sat..cya den ppl =)

somethings are best to be left unsaid..

but once it's said..

it's best to leave it as it is..

there's no need to make any changes..

life

2008-06-09T03:31:00.003-06:00

if i said something different that day..

instead of thinking you were only asking for fun..

will things be different now?

after all the said and done..

i know i'm not the only one..

the exact things that happened..

hols!!

2008-06-09T02:57:00.003-06:00

it's hols!!..n i'm down with flu..as usual..everytime tests or exams also like tt de..this goes the same to carol..haha..poor us..got lots of proj to do..both individual and grp proj..went out yest..n bought a bag..opps..haha..n my dress is here~!!! nice!! happy me!!~!~ =)))..its quite reddish pink..but still nice la..haha..n my formal jacket too..super happy me!! =)) got alot of movies i wanna watch..kungfu panda!! a movie that i've been waitin for 2 months!!..finally its now in cinemas..n..made of honour..darlings they all say wanna watch sex and the city..haha..n a movie that i did not have the time to watch..waitin for the dvd to be out..n its 'Sky of Love'!!..its nice!!..but still waitin for dvd to be out..

yest was duan wu jie..the day tt ppl throw the zong zi into the sea to prevent fishes to eat the body of qu yuan..AND THIS DAY MADE ME THOUGH OF OUR DEAR JJ!~!~!!...hahahaha...i remeber last year on the day celebratin my birthday..we went to chinese garden..and when we were leaving..we had to walk pass the bridge..below the bridge is actually..erm..do u call it a lake??..i dunnoe la...den JJ started askin whether is this the day when ppl throw zong zi into the sea one??...hahahahaha...we all stun n started to laugh like siao..tt day was not duan wu jie..it was zhong qiu jie (mid-autumn festival)~!~!~!~!...ahhahaha...when ppl eat mooncakes and all..we all just cant stop laughing man..thanks to JJ..hahahah!!!~!~!..

it's hols n i wanna go cycling..kbox..go out with darlings~!..n now must start planning for something alr..cannot let the person know..shhh...we got one wk left :X

lastly, congrats and pls be careful.. =)

i keep seeing the same thing everywhere..

it's like..

reminding me of what i could have done..

but there wasn't more..

how i wish there could be someone who is the same as me..

sorry i never told you..

all i wanted to say..

and i know you're shining down on me from heaven

one sweet day

hands of fate

2008-06-06T02:41:00.003-06:00

sorry to jess..cant pei you tmr..meet u next time k? =) love ya!! =)..n we shall go cycling..shoppin..n to lou..time to stop playin ur mahjong ..haha!!..

the story..

will start to be written today..

which was left in the hands of fate..

music of my heart

forever with you

forever in me

last paper!! =))

2008-06-05T10:50:00.003-06:00

last paper today..was late on the first paper..reached at 12.59..one min be4 the paper started..haha..me n carol rushin like siao to lt..there were more ppl later than us..den today..din meet carol cuz she woke up late..so went straight to sch..reached sch ard 12.10..haha..super early!!!was sittin outside the tut classroom there alone..den waimun came..den slowly more reached..den dear carol reached..she took cab n it was rainin at her house there..but sch not rainin at all..but it was cold..n she wasn't late..phew..den poor jack..was drenched..den was sayin sekali later the tutor dun allow him in..haha..there was sound comin out from his shoes when he walk la..haha..den here comes shaun..askin for sweet..as usual..den din help me throw the container somemore..thanks ah shaun..den here comes jianhai..he wanted to throw my notes away say dun need study alr..haha..den he was standing next to me n kept nagging.."forget...forget..forget.."haha..den kiong also..den turn out tt kiong forgot wad he was studyin..haha..den we all started to walk in classroom..den cute lor..the paper..omg..we all tot how super difficult it will be..den turn out like tt..but ok la..at least will pass..10 mcqs and 3 ESSAY QNS..haha...essay qns..cute..den hint until so jialat somemore..den josh still ask amy lim bout the qns thing..everybody just laugh out la..as usual ah josh..last sem also like tt..alot of ppl finished the paper within the first 30 mins..hy went out after 20 mins i think..tt was fast..den slowly alot ppl just started walkin out..den me n carol too..went out at 1.30..haha..first time so early come out...if not we 2 will always sit till the end of paper..ahah..den we were all standing outside the classroom there talkin ..along with jian hai n josh..we were discussin bout the possibilities of the qns kena changed..hahaha..we talked bout how advance the technology is now..haha..all weird weird stuffs la..hohohhoo!!!...den after paper..went off with carol darling..lixian..n wai mun..den got stopped by a couple of ppl at the entrance..bout wad..connect singapore..haha..dunnoe wanna join them anot..shall c how..den we went to tm to eat our super late de lunch at ard 3 plus..ate laksa with carol..den after tt..went off..was super super tired..n cuz of tat too..super wan bang head..went home..nearly fell asleep on the couch..but din..phew..

tml carol still got paper..good luck darling!! =)) cya next mon =)

stop and stare..

it gave me a clue..

a hint..

no lesson day

2008-05-28T09:18:00.004-06:00

how great..today no lesson too..hahaha..mon,wed,n thurs also no lesson..hahaha..hmm..everytime like tt de..when near to test or exam..gettin sick is like a must-have..wad the..it's tiring..think cuz of the rain today..hai..hope can faster faster get well..n not be like tt time durin exams..k..studyin time again..gtg..

it's always like that..
it just comes and goes..
cuz we're unsure..
unsure of everything..
just hoping that there'll be someone to tell us..
what we should do exactly..
but sometimes,
somethings you just have to figure it out yourself..
no one can tell you wad to do..
which makes things more complicated than it seems..

we're both in the same situation now..everything is so complicated..

tiring long day..

2008-05-27T10:10:00.002-06:00

slept at 2 am last nite..was rush proj coz today irene chan wanna look at it..we stay up till quite late to try to finish it up..haha..carol cute lor..so late le still eatin..den veri late den sleep..den last night on msn..we asked each other the same question at the same time too..ask if we've registered for the sip thing..hahahaha..was drinkin milk..nearly spill out lor...hahahaa..den finally done le..we all went to sleep at ard 2 plus..n have to wake up at 8 cuz proj meetin is at 10!!..oh my..so tired now..had proj meetin at 10, sale mgt tut at 1, sales mgt lect from 4-6...how great..haha..during meetin..was thinkin of goin cheers to buy drink..while walkin there..i saw jie mei!! haah..from far can see him alr..den talk with him n elias for a while..den went to cheers with agnes..hmm..n..heng la..the stuff we did up last night was ok..irene chan it was good!!..haha..keep up the good work girls!! =)) hmm...i was alr 3/4 dead durin lect..after lect..we all were standing outside lt..talkin to jian hai, jie mei n kenny..n the gals too..whol big group of ppl standing outside lt there talkin..n laughin..haha..the guys actually wanted to play soccer but it was rainin and so they all din..den super funnie..kejia came out from the toilet..and as she was so tall..and me n carol was 'hidden' within the whole grp of ppl, kejia cant find us at all!!!....den we purposely hide from her somemore..i hid behind josh den carol hid behind jianhai i think...ahahha...den she realli cant find us lor..the guys din know wad we were doin..when they found out..they playes along too..helping me n carol..hahah..the kejia walk all the way from the toilet there to the tables outside lt..and walked back again...den she still went to ask the gals if they saw us..omg!!!...ahahah..kejia ah kejia..grow taller somemore lar!!...hahahaha...kiddin kiddin..den i just laughed out and she saw us..den everyone just laughed out like siao..hahahah..so funnie lor!!!...den we went off..said bye to the whole group of ppl there..den went to meet shujun..waited for her for awhile..walked to the bus stop n it was so so so packed!!!...haha..n it was drizzllin somemore..den waited for quite some time until our bus came..n we went off..i'm so sleepy now n so..i shall end here..haha..take care ppl! =))

far from here

2008-05-26T01:10:00.004-06:00

no lesson today..proj consultation i think..time to study..time to be back on track..

some things are easier to be said than done..

it's not easy..

what if the things they said are true..

try putting yourself in other people's shoes and think for them..

and i think it's something you have not done at all..

the story did went long with the song..

the song which gave hope..

then, sadness came along..

now, we have to continue the story..

which is not written in the song..

and it turned out to be much better when it first started..

sometimes, you should try to slow down your pace..

and look around..

at the things you missed..

the things you've never stopped to look at..

slow down to take a break..

slow down to breathe..

to think..

for what's best for everyone..

too much memories to give up..

too many songs which represented it..

too far to go..

too little things to know..

too little time to think..

hard to say i'm sorry..

projs!~!

2008-05-25T09:32:00.002-06:00

am abit stressed up by projects and all..it felt like we're progressing abit slow..but now gotta focus more on mid sem tests rather than projects..after mid sem tests den gotta start to chiong alr la..ppl..work hard for mid sem tests!! =))

hard to say i'm sorry

2008-05-25T02:01:00.004-06:00

fri reached sch before 2..tot i'll be late..walked to biz sch n saw the donation thing for sichuan again..so walked there again..n saw hongyi..haha..everytime cheeky smile oni..den went to find kejia n crystal they all..they ask me to sit down..den 2 seconds later say wanna go in lt alr..haha..they very bad..purposely one..haha..den we still went in later on..den there were two seats next to jack..so me n kejia moved back to sit with jack they all n den aunty wei lin started sayin me n kejia.."..just now ask u all move dun wan den now den move.."heee..if not the whole row oni me n kejia den abit weird ma..hee..den sth funnie happened during lect..super funnie lor..me, kejia, jack, shaun..just kept laughing..for dunnoe how long...thanks to jack's sweet wrapper...hahahahhahhaa!!!!!!!..after he ate the sweet den he crash the sweet wrapper n put it on the table..den he used his fingers, wanting the shoot it further infront..den who knows..the wrapper dropped on the chair infront of him, where edwin put his bag..den we all tot the wrapper dropped into his bag..den we 4 just started laughin n laughin..den jack leaned forward to see if it really dropped inside..den edwin looked back at jack...den jack faster moved back n act like nth happened..but we all still laughin..so he knows there's sth wrong..haha..n we just kept quiet..so funnie can..den no one wanted to tell him what happened..haha!!..in the end he still knew what happened la..n the wrapper did not get into his bag..its on the chair..haha!!..still so funnie can..oh my..after lect..we all went off..

den ard evening..kinda went shoppin la..bought 3 items in one day..2 jumper n 1 dress..hahahah!!!! how great.. n daddy saw what i bought..den he say its like kids clothings..omg!!...daddy very bad ..den he say it also looked like sleepwear..omg!!..but i know he kiddin la..hahhaha..but the dress was ok la..he din say anith bad bout the dress..haha..

n i just found out there'll be 2 weddings this year in my family..haha!!..one in sept n one in dec..

yest went out with sj n jess..went to have lunch at shaw house den went to orchard hotel ballroom, where there's this idp exhibition..took some brochures to look at..den went off ard 4 if im not wrong..den went to wisma to find sj's sis..den went off to heeren...hahaha..n hongyi's at work..so went to find him also..den when we reached there..it was exactly the time when he knock off..haha..den we went tcc for a drink n went home..my legs aching alr..haha..walked from centrepoint to ps..haha..

mid sem tests comin soon..gotta study alr..2 papers this time..

after all that we've been through,

i will make it up to you..

pick me up,

take me to a place i've never been before

in my heart,

i found a place to keep your smiling face