Saturday, January 17, 2009
am feeling sad too..
seeing how hard he's trying to hide his sadness and grief..
could understand how hard it is for him to go through this..
now, we are able to see how fragile life can be..
and how short life can be..
what if we've only have a few more years to live..
what is the very last thing you wanna do?
telling those you love how much you love them?
or telling those you've hurt how sorry you are??
everyday i wake up..
the very first thing on my mind is..
'what if today is my last?'
so..i will live everyday as if it is my last..
creating happy memories and living the day to the fullest..
so as not to have any regrets..
you got me confused rounds and rounds..
what do you want from me..
maybe its cos i din bother you much this few times..
dun wanna talk to you in school..
and you think i'm getting further away from you..
missing you already..
or should i even say..
am already missing you even before you left..
thats why i din know what to say on the phone..
but nvm..
it'll keep me accompany for now..
2 more days till you're back..
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Friday, January 09, 2009
this is how fate can play with us.. and this is how my life is playing with me..
the last time i saw you, i really thought it was going to be the last time i saw you..
the last day of 2008, how i wish i will never ever see you ever again..so 2009 will be much better..
and guess what, fate really knows how to play games..
the instinct that can't be explained.. the same old route i used to walk..
the same bus stop i used to be.. the same you i used to know..
how great can the timing be.. when it's just randomly the time for us to go..
2 different buses came.. one to bedok.. one to tampines..
the one thing is, ever since school started, i've never once taken bus to tampines..
yeah.. so, greatly, fate really do loves to play games..
the next stop, a turn back, i saw the you i used to know..
greatly shocked, because the instinct did came true..
how relieved i was to be on that bus rather than the one behind..
you still looked.. the same.. a little.. change..
the sight of you just reminded me of everything..
unhappiness grew.. hate revolved around.. sadness came to say 'hi'..
so does it really din even bother you at all for the disappearance of one week?
you din even ask.. so, what can i say..
i wasn't giving up.. i know i didn't contact you at all.. but i didn't thought of giving up..
it was you who said not to give up.. but you're the one who gave up first..
so, apologised for the disappearance of one week..
and that's the answer you gave me.. how am i suppose to respond..
seeing you again did remind me of the one week i had..
the week i wished you were with me so much..
and indeed you didn't know what was going on and what actually happened..
i didn't wanna tell you.. cos at that time, i already knew you didn't care..
well, if you think i've never tried, you were so totally wrong
and if you think only the scene of tears would prove your importance,
you were right, but you didn't see it yourself, so again, what can i say..
all the long sms i've sent, well, i really guess you didn't receive any of them..
the most helpful thing he said to me was, "what can you do?"
so i guess this sentence did helped a bit.. or much..
sometimes i just thought.. how i wish there was a button.. which can erase all of these..
so when i see u on the street next time.. i will just pass by.. with no feelings at all..
will you even be reading this.. i have no idea..
you didn't even know i was there today.. it was just a window away..
but, what i can say is, glad to see you recovered and walking around normally..
and, if you still remembered what you said, the first thing you wanna do when you recovered..
i guess its something that will never ever happen..
Friday, January 09, 2009
Thursday, January 01, 2009
everyone just felt like we don't have enough time for everything.. high expectations for projects but we do have other things to do too.. maybe its just something for us to learn.. learn how to handle all things at one go.. learn how to handle stress.. learn how to manage time.. but the thing is.. we use all of our time to do projs and get busy with schoolwork.. we don't have any more of free time to do other things.. even to spend that free time (which we currently do not have) with our loved ones.. sigh.. what can they do but to understand what we are going through.. now what i can do is to fork out some free time during weekends.. that's when we are free.. haha.. hmm.. i will only be free during february.. and after february.. thats when we'll go travel around.. and play and eat and have fun!!!
ok.. 31 dec.. which was yest.. the last day of 2008.. YEAH!!! byebye 2008, hello 2009!!! went to shop at around 8.. daddy fetched me there as i tot i was going to be late.. den they were doing stocktake.. so..ok.. went to help out.. free labour.. haha! den we had sooooooo much fun in shop.. keep playin with 'Ponyo'.. hahaa.. ok.. we had a conclusion.. who ever come and work and walk through that door will become siao siao one.. hahahah!!! michael just cant tahan us.. korkor also cant tahan alr.. haha.. we all just kept laughin and laughin.. and they also just wont forget to disturb disturb.. but too bad.. he cant come for supper.. haha.. den walter came.. gave us all party de stuffs.. hahaha.. cute lor.. ok.. den we all set off.. close shop.. went opp to have supper.. den korkor called lbsh.. but too bad.. haha.. den senior helped me revenge.. haha!! thanks man..
den we ate till ard 11 plus.. den 6 of us went to sing k.. korkor,merlin,melissa,ryan,huishan and me.. haha.. we had our count-down in the mrt.. cuuuuuuuuuuuuutttttteeee.. and someone called.. hee =) and wow.. i can say.. they sure are good singers man!!! sang till 4 am.. how fun!!! and korkor wanted to treat.. siao lor.. sure damn ex la.. in the end.. we din let him treat.. haha.. reached home at 5am.. cannot tahan when at party world alr.. nearly fell asleep alr.. haha.. reached home after bathing.. and boom.. off to bed..
this sat we shall see how.. or else someone gonna be so bored alr.. haha=) but then.. sat morning i got lesson.. and sat evening.. steph jie-jie birthday party!! haha..
and.. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!
and ya.. i miss you tooo, melissa tan!!! and my dear and darling.. you guys know who i am refering to rite??? =D
Thursday, January 01, 2009
