this is what i wanted to do.. this is what i wanted to learn.. for the past 8 years of dream.. now i have the chance to realise it.. but i'm not allowed to.. no one can ever understand how that will feel.. while others are allowed to do whatever they want.. with full support.. while i get none.. totally none of the support.. what i get is only how i am forever not going to achieve it.. not even a chance is given.. what they do is to twist and turn the actual meaning of those words.. if i can't even solve all the issues that implies, i wouldn't have brought up the matter in the first place.. i've been planning this for such a long time.. yet no one is willing to support.. thus,what am i to them.. someone who is not able to achieve any goals she has set for herself, for her life, for her dreams.. in conclusion, they don't understand at all.. ''motive''? what motives do i have for learning it? the motives are simple.. for someone who is losing all her friends, just because she has to reach home by 11pm when she's out, no one wants to ever ask her out cos her phone will start ringing when the clock strikes 10pm, and she has to leave, to get home by 11pm.. for someone who has only a few close friends left, but they are not well-liked by her family..and she can't even talk on the phone for too long with any of them..can't sms too much.. so what is she left with? she, herself, in her own la la land.. im just sick of watching tv and playing the comp all the time.. living a life like this, whats the worth? why can't you guys just be happy for me, at least i would like to have a change in life, doing what i love, and not asking me whats the damn use of learning it?
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
i dont know what to blog about anymore..
''Words I Couldn't Say'' - Rascal Flatts
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Monday, October 05, 2009
indeed, kinda regret not updating my blog over that period of time.. simply just noting down the details that happened.. but somehow, it may not be the best decision after all.. you're everywhere i go..
i love the life i have now.. i love the place i'm at.. the flexibility that not every place can give.. i love to travel and i love looking at the scenery everyday.. this became something that someone will enjoy doing.. so overall, i just totally love it..
however, i just feel that time is never enough.. 'timeless' is how i should phrase it i guess.. and suddenly, i just felt that this, is somehow, the way things should be..
